Maggie May Rose
Maggie was probably one of my best friends in this world...even though she was my dog.
She always had this elegant air about her, with just a hit of wildness behind it.
She loved me unconditionally, even when i would forget to open the door from the garage and she would have to scratch "knock" on the door to tell me to let her in. I think that's what made her so much a part of my heart, because she always forgave my downfalls. Even though she was a dog she really felt like a family member...heck a sister.
Weds afternoon i got dropped off at my house after swimming and called out to Maggie May so we could go on a walk. I found her downstairs on my tile, still shaking from her last sezier. Her eyes were rolled back into her head and she had bitten through her lip from the lock jaw, so i pried open her jaws and got it out from between her teeth. I laid with her then for the next hour or so, making sobbing phone calls to Justin my Mom and my Sister. When Justin got there he helpped me get ready for work and helpped me calm down.
That night i got home and she was just the way i left her, eyes still rolled back. So i laid with her and rubbed her and made sure she knew i was there, i hope she knew....i hope she wasnt scared...like me. I told her she was going to be ok and that we were going to take her to the vet over and over again. I covered her with a blanket and prayed....i prayed that she would come out of it, i prayed that she was ok, but most of all i prayed that whatever happened to her she would end up happy and pain free.
i went to bed
When i woke up and traveled down the stairs to check on her, her breathing and heart beat was faint. I rubbed her vigeruosly to get her warmer and to get her circulation up. After i showered and got ready for school i sat with her and rubbed her and told her she was going to be ok and that she was going to go to the vet and they would help her. I forgot i had left my cellphone upstairs so i went to get it. When i came back i lifted up her lip to see if the puncture wound was bleeding, it wasnt...but her tongue had an odd purple tint to it and i couldnt find her heartbeat....i licked the back of my hand and put it to her nose...i couldnt feel her breath. I hoped i was just imaging it as my dad came out of the garage and told me that he would take me to school. I gave Maggie my last good rubbing...and i told her that i loved her, and as i walked out to the car i got a knot in my stomach which grew the entire day till i called my dad after swim practice and asked what the vet said. He told me that Maggie had died that morning and she had cancer and shes not in anymore pain.
i hope she's running up and down stairs in heaven without a care, laughing at the arthritous that plagued her in the last years of her life. Im really glad she chose my doorstep to sleep on that fateful night 5 or 6 years ago. i really think that she knew that a little girl really needed her. Im glad that she could escape her old life of abuse and mistreatment. I cant believe she still had it in her to let us love her......and i think she loved us too.
Maggie May Rose, i love you and i hope ur having a great time wherever you are.
My home is not the same anymore and the void you left will never be filled.
You are deeply missed
She always had this elegant air about her, with just a hit of wildness behind it.
She loved me unconditionally, even when i would forget to open the door from the garage and she would have to scratch "knock" on the door to tell me to let her in. I think that's what made her so much a part of my heart, because she always forgave my downfalls. Even though she was a dog she really felt like a family member...heck a sister.
Weds afternoon i got dropped off at my house after swimming and called out to Maggie May so we could go on a walk. I found her downstairs on my tile, still shaking from her last sezier. Her eyes were rolled back into her head and she had bitten through her lip from the lock jaw, so i pried open her jaws and got it out from between her teeth. I laid with her then for the next hour or so, making sobbing phone calls to Justin my Mom and my Sister. When Justin got there he helpped me get ready for work and helpped me calm down.
That night i got home and she was just the way i left her, eyes still rolled back. So i laid with her and rubbed her and made sure she knew i was there, i hope she knew....i hope she wasnt scared...like me. I told her she was going to be ok and that we were going to take her to the vet over and over again. I covered her with a blanket and prayed....i prayed that she would come out of it, i prayed that she was ok, but most of all i prayed that whatever happened to her she would end up happy and pain free.
i went to bed
When i woke up and traveled down the stairs to check on her, her breathing and heart beat was faint. I rubbed her vigeruosly to get her warmer and to get her circulation up. After i showered and got ready for school i sat with her and rubbed her and told her she was going to be ok and that she was going to go to the vet and they would help her. I forgot i had left my cellphone upstairs so i went to get it. When i came back i lifted up her lip to see if the puncture wound was bleeding, it wasnt...but her tongue had an odd purple tint to it and i couldnt find her heartbeat....i licked the back of my hand and put it to her nose...i couldnt feel her breath. I hoped i was just imaging it as my dad came out of the garage and told me that he would take me to school. I gave Maggie my last good rubbing...and i told her that i loved her, and as i walked out to the car i got a knot in my stomach which grew the entire day till i called my dad after swim practice and asked what the vet said. He told me that Maggie had died that morning and she had cancer and shes not in anymore pain.
i hope she's running up and down stairs in heaven without a care, laughing at the arthritous that plagued her in the last years of her life. Im really glad she chose my doorstep to sleep on that fateful night 5 or 6 years ago. i really think that she knew that a little girl really needed her. Im glad that she could escape her old life of abuse and mistreatment. I cant believe she still had it in her to let us love her......and i think she loved us too.
Maggie May Rose, i love you and i hope ur having a great time wherever you are.
My home is not the same anymore and the void you left will never be filled.
You are deeply missed