Not Sure
I’m not sure what to think by the phone call I got. My ex called me, but I missed the call. She left a message though and I’m kind of taken aback by it. She said I came across her mind; so she called to say hi and see how I was doing. I’m trying to figure out why would I come across her mind at midnight especially when she’s usually sleeping around this time. I don’t know maybe I’m just thinking way too much into this one. She broke up with me b/c she said she wasn’t ready for a relationship and the was a lot of stressful things going on in her life. Although I found out from reading her blog entry she has a new girlfriend now. It rubbed my kind of raw when I read her blog and to know that they hooked up not to long after she dumped me didn’t make me feel any better either. Although she doesn’t know I read her blogs or that I know about the new girlfriend. If she wanted to not be with me then she should have just told me that. Rather then making up an excuse; I just wish she could have been honest with me. Although now I’m sitting here debating on weather or not to all her back? Am I reading way too much into this? Or Should I just let it roll on like all the other things in my life I’ve been putting off? Her voice sounded different as well; as if there was something she wasn’t saying. It was like 11:30pm when she called; now it’s 4am and I’ve been thinking about it since then. Needless to say I’m still lost about it and who knows if I’ll ever figure it out. Maybe I’ll call and maybe I won’t. Although one thing I do know is I defiantly don’t want to come off as desperate…That’s for sure…Later Days