OH and.....

[the_funke_mac]

I HAVE had a great week and a half  before this tirade hit me an hour ago. I've been getting to drive!!!! Glorious wonderful driving!!!! I'm in rapture when I drive these days lol.  I got out a bit last week too with Tina and her daughters since she had the week off, it was awsome. Now my mom is here, and she's so great. She comes to visit us, but also with the intention of helping out as much as she possibly can while she's here. Vaccuming, dishes, laundry, the litter, the dogs. She is quite simply amazing. She knows instinctively what we need, but doesn't force it on us, and is very unobtrusive about things. I didn't used to realise the relief of having her here, until she leaves, and that bit of the burden that she had lifted now settles back down on my shoulders. It's not that I can't handle it, and I will no two ways about it. But it's so nice to have the option to let someone else handle it. Someone else who isn't Sean. He's so burnt out, my poor man, and I can't take anything off his plate. The frustration over that is excruciating. He is like my mom. He does it all willingly, understandingly, and out of love.
Despite my hardships, I am truly fortunate to have the people I DO have, when they CAN be around me. I will never take that for granted. I wish some of them could be here more often, being alone so much makes everything harder. Sean works too much, but he has no choice. We can't sell yet, and we have a mortgage to pay.
Life is a frustrating and wonderful thing. Most of the time these days, I want to take life in my hands and strangle it.