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OK THIS IS THE LAST OF MY I HATE LIFE JOURNAL ENTRIES, BECAUSE EVERYONE KNOW PROBABLY THINKS I AM A DEPRESSED LUNATIC.
I am a very confused and hurt
little woman right now. My life
worsens as the minutes pass.
Last night some things were said
that I didn't mean. But people
say things they don't mean. Especially
me when I'm mad.And I was very mad
and in need of a friend, so
instead of letting them help me
I pushed them away. And now
people are probably going to
hate me for like 10 years because
I "flipped out" on my best friend.
Shit happens, Life goes on. We
agreed on that.
I think I'm really learning a lot
through all this shit I'm going
through. I learned 1st of all,
not to complain, because it's getting
me nowhere.I learned not to
depend on other people to fix your
problems for you, however I think
I expected that because when one
of my good friends has a problem
I want to be the first person they
run to for help, and I want to be
the first person to try to fix it.
I learned, as bad as it sounds, not
to care as much as I do. I always
put my friends and boyfriends before
myself, and I'm getting fucked over
as we speak.Hummm, what else did
I learn...oh yeah! The world is
out to get me, and everyone's against
me. Tom let me know that. Thanks, real
friend there..don't talk to me for 4 months
and then yell at me out of nowhere...
ANYWAY ON A LIGHTER NOTTTTTEEEEE:
89x stole christmas show 7 is wednesday
which im going to with my lovers
(being elyse,sean,and jamie)
and then I'm going to snowball w/
jamie, and elyse and sean.wooooot!
yep, so to end my dumb,depressing,annoying
journal entry..i love the following people:
ELYSE-i can't go on w/ out my best 'emo
checkered toes' friend.I'm really sorry
for what I said last night. You really
are my best friend.And what I said was just
completely wrong.I love you so much girl, we've
been through soooo much.<3
JAMIE-you really helped me yesterday by
just talking w/ me. means a lot.you
also make me laugh.alot.which i've really
needed lately. thanks muchhhh<3
SEAN-heh..we had a famous tara&sean talk
last night..heh...oh yeah and you and
jamie are seriously like my best guy
friends everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
MOLLY-if you switch schools, I am
going to attack you with my claws.
NO FUCKING JOKE! I CAN'T FUCK SHIT
UP HARDCORE W/ JORDAN!!
p.s. I hope everythings works out for the
best.=/
BRANDON-Even tho this boi will never
read this.You all should know that
w/ out him, I don't know where I'd be in
life.He taught me sooo much. And has
always been there for me 100%.love ya!
JOE-I really didn't know I had that great
of an effect on people. But thanks for
pullin me through when I wasn't feelin
all to well.<33
and
CHRIS-I don't even know what to say, I really
don't.Because I don't know what's going on
with us. I'm kinda confused...but i still
**less than three** you,always.I'm glad
you decided to go to the hospital. I was
sooooo worried about you on thanksgiving.=/
p.s.HAPPY (belated) 19TH BIRTHDAY BOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god..im a fag.heh....whoopsies.
I am a very confused and hurt
little woman right now. My life
worsens as the minutes pass.
Last night some things were said
that I didn't mean. But people
say things they don't mean. Especially
me when I'm mad.And I was very mad
and in need of a friend, so
instead of letting them help me
I pushed them away. And now
people are probably going to
hate me for like 10 years because
I "flipped out" on my best friend.
Shit happens, Life goes on. We
agreed on that.
I think I'm really learning a lot
through all this shit I'm going
through. I learned 1st of all,
not to complain, because it's getting
me nowhere.I learned not to
depend on other people to fix your
problems for you, however I think
I expected that because when one
of my good friends has a problem
I want to be the first person they
run to for help, and I want to be
the first person to try to fix it.
I learned, as bad as it sounds, not
to care as much as I do. I always
put my friends and boyfriends before
myself, and I'm getting fucked over
as we speak.Hummm, what else did
I learn...oh yeah! The world is
out to get me, and everyone's against
me. Tom let me know that. Thanks, real
friend there..don't talk to me for 4 months
and then yell at me out of nowhere...
ANYWAY ON A LIGHTER NOTTTTTEEEEE:
89x stole christmas show 7 is wednesday
which im going to with my lovers
(being elyse,sean,and jamie)
and then I'm going to snowball w/
jamie, and elyse and sean.wooooot!
yep, so to end my dumb,depressing,annoying
journal entry..i love the following people:
ELYSE-i can't go on w/ out my best 'emo
checkered toes' friend.I'm really sorry
for what I said last night. You really
are my best friend.And what I said was just
completely wrong.I love you so much girl, we've
been through soooo much.<3
JAMIE-you really helped me yesterday by
just talking w/ me. means a lot.you
also make me laugh.alot.which i've really
needed lately. thanks muchhhh<3
SEAN-heh..we had a famous tara&sean talk
last night..heh...oh yeah and you and
jamie are seriously like my best guy
friends everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
MOLLY-if you switch schools, I am
going to attack you with my claws.
NO FUCKING JOKE! I CAN'T FUCK SHIT
UP HARDCORE W/ JORDAN!!
p.s. I hope everythings works out for the
best.=/
BRANDON-Even tho this boi will never
read this.You all should know that
w/ out him, I don't know where I'd be in
life.He taught me sooo much. And has
always been there for me 100%.love ya!
JOE-I really didn't know I had that great
of an effect on people. But thanks for
pullin me through when I wasn't feelin
all to well.<33
and
CHRIS-I don't even know what to say, I really
don't.Because I don't know what's going on
with us. I'm kinda confused...but i still
**less than three** you,always.I'm glad
you decided to go to the hospital. I was
sooooo worried about you on thanksgiving.=/
p.s.HAPPY (belated) 19TH BIRTHDAY BOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god..im a fag.heh....whoopsies.