*hands down*

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Last night was amazing. In fact, the whole day was amazing!! I decided to sleep in through my Interpersonal Comm. class because well I havent done it yet. I woke up around noon and went 2 Panera and got Broccilli Chedder soup in a bread bowl <3 amazing, watched my soap, went and got my hair did, then went home. I talked to the parentals. Mother and I had 2 converse over Ryans letter. It's the third one. Sheesh! Jess came over and we went out. I had 2 make my rounds ;-) Ya know make an appearance with all the people I have disassociated myself with for the past 3 months. I started with seeing Dan. BOY IS HE MISSED! I can't wait til he comes to visit me :-) Next... well lets start with why I went 2 visit my old buddies. Friday night, in CanaNada I saw JD and Danny. Danny was like I wanna chill b4 I got 2 prisin. I didnt take him seriously but he called me like 12 times that night. He made me promise 2 call him the next day to hang but well i didnt. I dunno why. I just didn't. So anyway randomly, outta absolutely nowhere, BOBBY CALLS ME! like randomness! He told me that if I came home Thursday me and him and jess and danny would all frolick around. Well turns out Danny went 2 prison the 28th instead of the 29th. boooo! STUPID COURTS. Bye bye to Danny... see ya in 3-20 years. :'( Well back to my night... after I saw Daniel I went to Bobby's. We hung out with him and his mother and Donny. Me and Jess wanted to go bowling sooo we had Donny get us some 40's then we hit up the lanes. Dougie and CORBIN met us up there. I LOVE THEM! I have missed my friends so much. The 4 of us bowled one game but had the best time. Corbin was like lets all go back 2 my place and chill. And im like okay but I remembered that Forbes and Rohlig live in Corbins sub so I hit em up and they were having a party. So Dougie called in to work and said he couldn't work the next morning so we could all party. B4 I went 2 Rohligs I had 2 stop by and say goodbye to Bobby, Donny, and cuzin Aaron. We just smoked and cigg and talked, whatev. Then me and Jess were on our way 2 good old Walled Lake. Got 2 Rohligs only to find two gurlz I was friends with in HS there. It was fun tho cuz they were all nice and shit like OMG YOU GOTTA COME 2 U OF M WITH US SATURDAY!! im like i dunno bro, maybe... so I might do that. Anyways I was really really really drunk and after almost everyone was gone I finally broke down. It was me, Corbin, Dougie, and Vicki {{Chris was "sleeping" and Jess and Forbes were talking}} oh and some other Jeff kid was sitting with us too. Anyways we started talking about Ryan. And for the first time in weeks, I cried. I finally let my emotions about it all out. Ive held them in 4 so long just saying I hate him and hope he never gets out blah blah trying 2 cover up the fact at one point I really did care about him. I didn't want anyone to see me cry so I went out on the Balcony. It was pouring rain but yet reguardless Dougie came out there and just held me. He just let me cry in his arms while we were getting poured on. After 10 mins or so I was okay enuff to go inside and be social. Forbes gave me some Marijuana and me and Corbz and Vicki smoked. I felt dizzy and I was spinning. So I went in the bathroom adn hurled... YUCK!! Well I decided Jess wouldnt care if i interupted her convo, I sorta needed a gurl at the moment. Just someone who could hold my hair and make me feel better and well jess is the best at making me happy. The gurl knows just what to say and when to say it. That's why we're so good 4 eachother, we make eachother hgappy. I've never had a friend like her. I love!!!!! After a while of puking I was okay enuff to go back 2 Corbins to pass out. Annnd thats exactly what happened, I passed the eff out. But last night made me realize some things. First, all those guys from back home, are really great guys. I didn't realize how much I missed them until I saw them again. Some of them have been my friends for years and loosing contact with them is not what I want. I wanan keep em as friends. Second, Doug is the best boy in the entire world. He's so compassionate. He deserves to find a gurl whos gonna treat him as well as I know he'll treat her. Annnd third, Jess has become my best friend. If she isn't around, I dont have the same fun. It's like shes the half of me I've been missing. We connect so well and are just so perfect 4 being eachothers friend. I'm glad God finally brought us to eachother.

I'm finally happy with my life, my friends, my job, and school. While I was home, everyone told me all the shit Ashley and Lauri talk about me. They say basically they same shit. I dunno why, but I don't care. They can talk all they want it really doesnt effect me. I guess one day Ashley and Lauri were sitting in a room just talking about how im so annoying cuz im so giddy or whatever. Well fuck em. They're stuck in HS still. Thinking its all cool to pretend to be someone's friend but yet talking shit behind their back. I mean I haven't considered either of em friends since well b4 I moved. The fact that Ashley still IMs me online is the annoying part. The gurl needs to go back 2 hs or something, she'd get along great with the kids in there. Talk shit kids talk it all you want but the truth of the matter is, you don't know me. You don't know a damn thing about me anymore. If trying 2 bring other ppl down is whats gonna make you happy, feel free to talk all the shit you want about me. If its really gonna make you feel that much better about yourself, DO IT UP!

Ghetto Danny... you're missed by everyone :-(
~*Nicole*~