...if only...
I wish someone understood me
I wish I understood myself
Jessica has been home so Alex has had less time 4 me. I know it's not that she doesnt want 2 spend time with me but I still wish Jess could give me and Al a day 2 ourselves. Asking her to do that tho, would only cause drama. So I guess I'll just have 2 get used to the adjustments that me and Al gotta make 2 our lives now that she is home from school, 4 good. I'm glad I have my Jess tho. It's helpful 2 know I have someone other then Alex and Tracey who I can count on. Now that Al's life is becoming preoccupied with Jessica and Tracey works 24.7 and cant find a day during the week to hang out, other then our wonderful weekend traditions of spending em 2gether, I have Jess. A gurl who in such short of time has made me laugh and smile more then I have in a long time. She brings out the good in me. And she cares about me. Jess's friendship means alot to me. I see us becoming best friends. The best part is, she agrees. Ya know, she actually told me she see's me being her maid of honor @ her wedding. We will become best friends. I'm just gonna keep praying that she doesn't somehow screw me over like the rest of my old "best" friends. Jess and my relationship is almost as tho we've known eachother 4ever. She doesn't judge me 4 the stupid things I say or sometimes do. She knows I tend 2 be a little dramatic and over-react about somethings but she doesn't let that change the way she looks at me. In fact, I think she likes me more 4 my honesty.
Even tho I have great friends, I'm still lonely. I'm still longing for to find that one boy who can make my heart skip a beat. Makes me weak in my knees :-P it'll happen, maybe tomorrow or maybe in a year. Until that boy and I cross paths... I'm just gonna keep getting to know guys. Maybe I shouldn't be looking for Mr. Right anyways. I should search for Mr. Right 4 Now and hopefully, if fate works the way its supposed to the 4 Now might just fall off and he will become Mr. Right. Hell why can't I have a couple Mr. Right 4 Now's. I gotta keep my options open and have as much fun as possible until that special connection is made.
That's all 4 now...
I wish I understood myself
Jessica has been home so Alex has had less time 4 me. I know it's not that she doesnt want 2 spend time with me but I still wish Jess could give me and Al a day 2 ourselves. Asking her to do that tho, would only cause drama. So I guess I'll just have 2 get used to the adjustments that me and Al gotta make 2 our lives now that she is home from school, 4 good. I'm glad I have my Jess tho. It's helpful 2 know I have someone other then Alex and Tracey who I can count on. Now that Al's life is becoming preoccupied with Jessica and Tracey works 24.7 and cant find a day during the week to hang out, other then our wonderful weekend traditions of spending em 2gether, I have Jess. A gurl who in such short of time has made me laugh and smile more then I have in a long time. She brings out the good in me. And she cares about me. Jess's friendship means alot to me. I see us becoming best friends. The best part is, she agrees. Ya know, she actually told me she see's me being her maid of honor @ her wedding. We will become best friends. I'm just gonna keep praying that she doesn't somehow screw me over like the rest of my old "best" friends. Jess and my relationship is almost as tho we've known eachother 4ever. She doesn't judge me 4 the stupid things I say or sometimes do. She knows I tend 2 be a little dramatic and over-react about somethings but she doesn't let that change the way she looks at me. In fact, I think she likes me more 4 my honesty.
Even tho I have great friends, I'm still lonely. I'm still longing for to find that one boy who can make my heart skip a beat. Makes me weak in my knees :-P it'll happen, maybe tomorrow or maybe in a year. Until that boy and I cross paths... I'm just gonna keep getting to know guys. Maybe I shouldn't be looking for Mr. Right anyways. I should search for Mr. Right 4 Now and hopefully, if fate works the way its supposed to the 4 Now might just fall off and he will become Mr. Right. Hell why can't I have a couple Mr. Right 4 Now's. I gotta keep my options open and have as much fun as possible until that special connection is made.
That's all 4 now...