hmm. graduation.
yes, i`m graduating. AT LONG LAST. and yet, i feel trepidation seeping into my bone marrow and making me aware of exactly what i am leaving behind. i guess it doesn`t really matter, not all that much. but this has been the preamble to my life, the first eighteen years behind me and i have many before me--i hope.
everyone`s fear makes me anxious. i don`t know, i guess it`ll hit me(as baz lurmann says it`ll blindside me on some idle tuesday) suddenly, like a sinking notion in my gut and i won`t know what to do about it. i`m afraid, i`m afraid to leave and go to allentown away from all i`ve known until this point in my life. but there, i`m sure i`ll make new friends and keep some old and be thankful that i just need to walk through a park to visit one of my favourite people. i want to go on dates and feel pressure and be comfortable with myself in a strange place. i`m sure i could do those things here, but look how the dating thing worked out for me--not very well. ;)
but you know, i`m thankful. i`m thankful for every wonderful and shitty thing that`s ever happened to me, it shaped me into the girl--lady, perhaps--that i am. we are all inherently good people. and i`m thankful i know you all.
so thank YOU(yes, even you) for being a part of my life, for impacting me in ways not even i am fully aware of. don`t forget that every little thing counts and affects you, positively and negatively to keep the equilibrium.
and to those of you worried you`ll--BOO HOO--never see me again... bullshit. you know i`ll be back to this cesspool. ... just.. never for very long. haha.
congratulations, graduates of 2007. the preface to the novel of your life finishes tonight, and the first chapter begins before you know it. take a breath, fake a smile or smile genuinely for the first time, and charge forth. it won`t be the last time you do it.
everyone`s fear makes me anxious. i don`t know, i guess it`ll hit me(as baz lurmann says it`ll blindside me on some idle tuesday) suddenly, like a sinking notion in my gut and i won`t know what to do about it. i`m afraid, i`m afraid to leave and go to allentown away from all i`ve known until this point in my life. but there, i`m sure i`ll make new friends and keep some old and be thankful that i just need to walk through a park to visit one of my favourite people. i want to go on dates and feel pressure and be comfortable with myself in a strange place. i`m sure i could do those things here, but look how the dating thing worked out for me--not very well. ;)
but you know, i`m thankful. i`m thankful for every wonderful and shitty thing that`s ever happened to me, it shaped me into the girl--lady, perhaps--that i am. we are all inherently good people. and i`m thankful i know you all.
so thank YOU(yes, even you) for being a part of my life, for impacting me in ways not even i am fully aware of. don`t forget that every little thing counts and affects you, positively and negatively to keep the equilibrium.
and to those of you worried you`ll--BOO HOO--never see me again... bullshit. you know i`ll be back to this cesspool. ... just.. never for very long. haha.
congratulations, graduates of 2007. the preface to the novel of your life finishes tonight, and the first chapter begins before you know it. take a breath, fake a smile or smile genuinely for the first time, and charge forth. it won`t be the last time you do it.