i hate updatin this thing,but oh well
okay, well you know how last time i was talking about the whole me and devon thing,well i stoped thinking about it for like 8 days,and now i'm starting to think about the me and devon thing again, everything is great with us and all well thats what i thought neways, just sometimes i stop and think about somethings between me and devon and its just really bugin me just some of the stuff that he does, i'm sure there is stuff i do that he doesn't like and i know that for a facted, but hes just buggin me alot lately and i just don't want to say anything to him just because i know some stuff i say to him he gets really mad at:S, PLUS the other day he was like "kailey you don't seem like you want to be with me anymore" well he said something like that, and when he said that to me, i just felt so freaking bad,my eyes started to water:S i have liked devon for almost 4 years now, and now that i'm really going out with him i'm like seeing the real side to him,before when i didn't really know him i thought it was great cas i would always talk to him about different stuff,but now theres nothing to talk to him about anymore, i LOVED it when i first started going out with devon cas he was shy and wasn't loud like most guys he hungout with and i really did liked that about him, but now hes not shy anymore and hes all loud and just iunno how to put it but neways,i'm just really hoping things between me and devon just get better because it seems like me and him get in fights everyday now,and i just feel so bad after cas its like we can never get along with eachother anymore its almost like were enemies:S i'm just really hoping i can make it through high school with him cas that would be AMZAING for me, cas he makes me so happy, DEVON I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, ITS CRAZY:) well i also have another thing i wanna to talk about on my stupid LJ....
well its God
i never pray anymore at all, because i feel like hes not even listening to what i have to say to him, and when i go to church i don't even worship him anymore i just sit down and watch everyone else, i almost feel like i'm not really believing in God anymore, i still do right now ,but its just so hard to say what i am really feeling about God, theres just like no words that can explain what i really have to say about him, devon told me that God is always listening to what i have to say, but i don't believe that,he can't always be listening to what i say cas there must be like millions of people that are praying to him each second and hes not just going to be listeing to to me, he has never really answered any of my prays before ever, maybe a few but the onces i really need him to help me with he hasn't helped me out yet so i'm just giving up on praying for now, i know i should be praying still and someone is prolly going to say that to me but i don't care... neways i have to go now bye
p.s i love you devon
well its God
i never pray anymore at all, because i feel like hes not even listening to what i have to say to him, and when i go to church i don't even worship him anymore i just sit down and watch everyone else, i almost feel like i'm not really believing in God anymore, i still do right now ,but its just so hard to say what i am really feeling about God, theres just like no words that can explain what i really have to say about him, devon told me that God is always listening to what i have to say, but i don't believe that,he can't always be listening to what i say cas there must be like millions of people that are praying to him each second and hes not just going to be listeing to to me, he has never really answered any of my prays before ever, maybe a few but the onces i really need him to help me with he hasn't helped me out yet so i'm just giving up on praying for now, i know i should be praying still and someone is prolly going to say that to me but i don't care... neways i have to go now bye
p.s i love you devon