Forget You ...

[the_dark_snack]

As I have said before, work has been very good lately. A few weeks ago I came to an understanding with M and she's been wonderful to be around & work with ever since. I honestly have felt like I belonged as was not a total fuck-up all the time. I really was happy at work and felt great going in every day. I was even trying to mentor the new girl (past new girl who couldn't do Excel is gone and I'm talking about her replacement) and help her to feel wanted and secure. I have been towing the team line long & hard.

Then today we had a meeting about the fact that we are not acting like a team and need to improve our attitudes. While I agree that most of the attendees needed to be in the meeting, my presence there felt like a slap in the face. I am really hurt by this and feel like everything I've been doing and working towards has been for shit. I really am shocked by this and feel almost betrayed. I really just don't know what to say. I was feeling like I was part of a family and now feel like an intruder and am likely to start counting my days till this assignment ends.

I just really don't know what else to say. I do know that I will never let myself feel comfortable again anywhere. I hate forgetting that and realize that it's my own damned fault for believing I would ever be a part of anything.

So, fuck my life. I give up trying.

I hope you are all doing well out there and I will try to post again soon.

TTFN!