The Sounds Of Silence ...
Just a note for everyone still out there. I'm not posting with any regularity not because I'm posting on Facebook or another site. I do post there occasionally but very rarely. I mostly have that to keep track of my calendar. I'm not posting regularly because 1. I really don't have much to talk about these days and 2. When I do have something to say, I no longer feel secure posting it here. Of course, I don't feel secure posting it anywhere else so it just stays inside and compounds upon all of my other issues.
I'm just not sure what to do anymore and I just wanted to say this to those of you out there who might actually read this, I really miss you all and the great times we had together in the past. It's just very hard for me to come back to regularly posting. I really care about all of you out there and do miss you and often think of you but find it very difficult to actually write anything down on a regular basis (let alone the irregular one I had been keeping).
I do promise I will try to post here whenever I can but just know that my writings will be sporadic and irregular. Also, I wanted you to know that I'm not putting all of my stuff on another site. I honestly don't feel very comfortable over there either. Especially after family members started harassing me to get in touch with my father (who wrote me out of his life years ago and told me that he would not help me in any way when I cam to him homeless & pregnant asking for advice & assistance). I'm pretty sure he's dead and there's a message from my stepmonster on the answering machine telling me that but I just haven't been able to listen to it even though it's over a month old. Plus, there's other people finding me that make me nervous and I really don't want to have contact with.
So, that's it for me for now. I'm going to go try to find something to eat for dinner (which is a pretty difficult task as we have no hot water, no working kitchen sink & pretty much all of our cookware & dishes are dirty). I wish you all the best and hope to talk with you again soon.
Love to you all!
TTFN!
I'm just not sure what to do anymore and I just wanted to say this to those of you out there who might actually read this, I really miss you all and the great times we had together in the past. It's just very hard for me to come back to regularly posting. I really care about all of you out there and do miss you and often think of you but find it very difficult to actually write anything down on a regular basis (let alone the irregular one I had been keeping).
I do promise I will try to post here whenever I can but just know that my writings will be sporadic and irregular. Also, I wanted you to know that I'm not putting all of my stuff on another site. I honestly don't feel very comfortable over there either. Especially after family members started harassing me to get in touch with my father (who wrote me out of his life years ago and told me that he would not help me in any way when I cam to him homeless & pregnant asking for advice & assistance). I'm pretty sure he's dead and there's a message from my stepmonster on the answering machine telling me that but I just haven't been able to listen to it even though it's over a month old. Plus, there's other people finding me that make me nervous and I really don't want to have contact with.
So, that's it for me for now. I'm going to go try to find something to eat for dinner (which is a pretty difficult task as we have no hot water, no working kitchen sink & pretty much all of our cookware & dishes are dirty). I wish you all the best and hope to talk with you again soon.
Love to you all!
TTFN!