When did this happen?

Oct 06, 2009 01:34

In elementary school you're always pestered with questions that pertain to your future. I think the biggest one is: what do you want to be when you grow up?
A basic question broken down to make you think about in fifteen to twenty years where do you see yourself pursuing a career in. As a child you'll like I want to do something awesome, of course. Famous athlete, doctor, actor, singer, or some cliche response as such. In reality, the percentage of people that achieve those goals are slim. I mean really I think I wanted to be in the FBI, catching bad guys or something ridiculous like that. And what fifteen years later I'm still pondering that question.
I have a degree. Going into with no clear objective of what I wanted from it.
Was that my mistake? The answer is I really don't know. I feel like it wasn't, but here I sit still thinking about jobs and looking over them and can't bring myself to do anything. Frozen in place, walking slowly through cornstarch and water. I think it would be better to research what I want to do when I grow up. Twenty-four and still don't know what I want to do with my life, but in reality isn't this the trend of my generation.
I have friend who said they hated their job and wanted to go back to school to do something else.
I did engineering, my option are not that open considering I have no experience, but once I do...The possibilities are not limited, but what are they, what can I do, I don't know.
I feel like my generation falls into a major not really knowing what to expect, unless your parents are there already. And really, at my age, my parents had my brother and were considering on having me. My dad had already been working in his field since out of high school, and here I'm unable to do shit with a degree because businesses have lost sight of the fact that your employees will not be there forever. Whats going to happen down the line when you suddenly loose the baby boomers working and the skill and experience needed isn't there, because you didn't take in a younger crew to train them. Way to go.
I'm going off on a tangent and I digress, what do I want to do when I grow up?
I would love to be a writer. The kid with dyslexia, that no one caught till high school, thinking I was just being lazy and/or stupid in English and spelling. Oh well, its always the what ifs of the past. I need to think head and think of what I need to be doing now to really become someone I'm satisfied with in ten years.
Would hate to look back at 35 and go, you know I should've...would of...could of....In due time, I'll figure it out.
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