March 4,2006
in all of my 25 years....i once found love 24 months ago.... spent 20 months together.... we were 27 months in age difference...4 months we've been apart
so what do i know about love? says all my friends,looking down on me,
condescendingly.
just one serious relationship.
only one true real girlfriend.
i've had other meaningless flings.
she was 3 vaginas ago.
way back there.
3 vaginas in 4 months.
how quickly i catch up.
7 guys in one year,
i can top that for sure.
3 this year already.
go me?
im not proud.
shame is my middle name.
its how i play the game.
four whores and several tears ago.
ive been in 5 total so far.
6 if you include my mom.
no.
3/4/06....a day of infamy.
luckily i made it out alive. in one piece. with my sanity intact.
i spent the day in bed. slept the day away.
i miss her more than anything i have ever missed.
relatives dead and gone. pets sorely missed.
my soulmate found....her memory now dead and buried.
save for what remains in my mind
why do i cry as if she has died?
i should of never turned my back and left love behind.
you can have all the things you want in life and more.
companionship,friendship. you can get laid. you can have fun.
but you cannot deny true love. its hard to find.
its impossible to replace.
it cant be duplicated. it can be imitated. but it cant be recreated.
i was dedicated.
loyal. faithful.unsure....but set in my ways, my mind was made up.
knowing now what i should of known then.
i lost my one and only.
now i will no doubt die young and lonely.
with nothing to strive for or goals to achieve.
any obstacle in my path...surely i could have overcome. with her at my side.
and victory sure would have been sweeter with the reward of her presence.
her smile.
her kiss.
her body wrapped around mine.
like a glove.
an absolute perfect fit.
a match made in hell.
something happened on the way to heaven.
she was my everything.
my world.
my partner in crime. the accomplice of mine.
we had the most glorious of times.
together.
forever.
i shall cherish that time in my life.
and wish for it back.
but never to foolishly selfishly make the mistake of wanting to go back.
cant go back. only move forward.
going straight ahead will get me there.
fork in the road.
which road will i choose.
none of this matters.
this confession has meant absolutely nothing.
to no one.
words.
falling on deaf ears.
a sight for sore eyes i have become.
thy will be done.
and buried.
with this heart in my chest.
it beats still.
stronger.
harder to go on.
blood still flows.
i like to make sure of it.
and watch it drain. slowly.
death will become us.
i was to die in her arms.
on her bosom.
face buried between.
i would bounce her bum.
she would pinch mine.
i threw it all away,
ill show you .
youll see.
a lesson learned.
i get it now.
please come home.
to me.
cant.
go.
back.
understood.
i love you like i should.
id be there right with you...
if i could.
toots.
duder.
my dear sweet punim.
i wonder whose been cookin in Gilligan's Kitchen?
never mind
til we meet again.
amen.
now and forever.
truly yours.
a washed up has been.
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It’s a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
It's a day that I’ll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
It’s a day that I’m glad I survived
so what do i know about love? says all my friends,looking down on me,
condescendingly.
just one serious relationship.
only one true real girlfriend.
i've had other meaningless flings.
she was 3 vaginas ago.
way back there.
3 vaginas in 4 months.
how quickly i catch up.
7 guys in one year,
i can top that for sure.
3 this year already.
go me?
im not proud.
shame is my middle name.
its how i play the game.
four whores and several tears ago.
ive been in 5 total so far.
6 if you include my mom.
no.
3/4/06....a day of infamy.
luckily i made it out alive. in one piece. with my sanity intact.
i spent the day in bed. slept the day away.
i miss her more than anything i have ever missed.
relatives dead and gone. pets sorely missed.
my soulmate found....her memory now dead and buried.
save for what remains in my mind
why do i cry as if she has died?
i should of never turned my back and left love behind.
you can have all the things you want in life and more.
companionship,friendship. you can get laid. you can have fun.
but you cannot deny true love. its hard to find.
its impossible to replace.
it cant be duplicated. it can be imitated. but it cant be recreated.
i was dedicated.
loyal. faithful.unsure....but set in my ways, my mind was made up.
knowing now what i should of known then.
i lost my one and only.
now i will no doubt die young and lonely.
with nothing to strive for or goals to achieve.
any obstacle in my path...surely i could have overcome. with her at my side.
and victory sure would have been sweeter with the reward of her presence.
her smile.
her kiss.
her body wrapped around mine.
like a glove.
an absolute perfect fit.
a match made in hell.
something happened on the way to heaven.
she was my everything.
my world.
my partner in crime. the accomplice of mine.
we had the most glorious of times.
together.
forever.
i shall cherish that time in my life.
and wish for it back.
but never to foolishly selfishly make the mistake of wanting to go back.
cant go back. only move forward.
going straight ahead will get me there.
fork in the road.
which road will i choose.
none of this matters.
this confession has meant absolutely nothing.
to no one.
words.
falling on deaf ears.
a sight for sore eyes i have become.
thy will be done.
and buried.
with this heart in my chest.
it beats still.
stronger.
harder to go on.
blood still flows.
i like to make sure of it.
and watch it drain. slowly.
death will become us.
i was to die in her arms.
on her bosom.
face buried between.
i would bounce her bum.
she would pinch mine.
i threw it all away,
ill show you .
youll see.
a lesson learned.
i get it now.
please come home.
to me.
cant.
go.
back.
understood.
i love you like i should.
id be there right with you...
if i could.
toots.
duder.
my dear sweet punim.
i wonder whose been cookin in Gilligan's Kitchen?
never mind
til we meet again.
amen.
now and forever.
truly yours.
a washed up has been.
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It’s a day that I can't stand
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Shouldn’t exist
It's a day that I’ll never miss
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
The most loneliest day of my life
And if you go,
I wanna go with you
And if you die,
I wanna die with you
Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
And it’s mine
It’s a day that I’m glad I survived