I've never eaten so much since I was thirteen...

[the_book_of_eve]

I must look  at thinsporational pictures and think that's how I look.

I haven't let myself go this badly in five years. I think it must have been a blessing in disguise that I haven't had a chance to weigh myself before the holiday. I would only come home to fall apart.

I am in Rome, where it's hot and makes Australia feel like a cool forest.

There is food everywhere. I am not hungry.

Let's back up a little, shall we?? I've been keeping a journal....

I suppose I start a few days before I left for Italy.

Monday, 25 May, 2009

And maybe I sleep just to dream of you
You're head over heels for someone, too
and maybe that's the only reason I feel the  way I do
I can't give my heart to someone who has a heart to give.
I wish I could.
You're safe. I am safe from you.
Maybe I sleep just to dream of you.
Maybe in the nighttime nothing really exists.
Under the stars there's nothing to miss...

Ok, I know I haven't gone to italy yet but I thought about B TM and thought i had to write...
I'm going to clean up a bit and hopefully dream of B TM. It's a bit depressing but it's the only time I can see him.
P.S I hope I sit next to someone interesting on the plane.

- E