oh wow *WARNING! EMONESS AHEAD!*
Yeah. I'm in a bad mood. If you don't want to read me venting a bit on the internet because no one I know will talk to me, then just go away. I don't want to hear more people wanting to kill kittens because of my bad mood and giving me the now age old advice that I should just go kill myself.
GOD! When surrounded by crap like this, no wonder I get depressed! D':
I'm about to go on my trip to Canada where everyone is treating me like some retarded child as we're getting ready for it and nagging me to pack during my LUNCH BREAK. I know I should be happy I'm going to Canada, but even though I'm happy I'm able to go, I don't want everyone I'm traveling with treating me like the scum of the earth every step of the way!
I'm working 9-5 every weekday for FREE. That's about a 40 hour week! Why? Because I'm incapable of getting a paying job! Just because I can't work year round, I'm rejected every time!
Speaking of work, even though it's for free, and as such everyone is really forgiving, it's out of my field. Each assignment I get, although it's something pretty easy a coworker could do in an hour, I have no idea what I'm doing. It takes me all day, or maybe even two days, because I have to spend so much time researching it.
I come home and then I have a VERY short evening where I'm usually bombarded with chores I need to do, which I can't do because I'm at work all of the time. After that, I really don't have time for anything fun before I'm sent off to bed. I've not found one day in which I could spend the day finishing painting a couple of pictures as presents to people! Oh but the weekend? Filled with more chores and places that I have to be or helping out someone (usually a thankless task).
"Oh be more assertive!" I hear. "Sounds like a personal problem." I fucking hate that phrase! Oh my life is full of a string of unfortunate circumstances that you refuse to hear about, and your advise is to cut me off with a sounds like you're a horrible person? I fucking hate myself enough thank you very much! >:'O
Sometimes all of this stress to try and be happy and successful; to make friends and keep people happy; and to help myself grow, change, and be happy really gets to me. I'd just like it if there was someone in my life who wasn't too busy or who wasn't bogged down with their dozens of troubles or who wasn't just too far way to at least support me in my endeavors. T^T Not to advise me with "Well it's something that you should do!" or "Well, wouldn't you like it more if you got paid" or "That's a personal problem" or "I don't want to hear it!" ;___;
Well if you excuse me, I'm going to stop typing paragraphs of emotional text into the great void that is the internet and try not to cry before I have to see people...
GOD! When surrounded by crap like this, no wonder I get depressed! D':
I'm about to go on my trip to Canada where everyone is treating me like some retarded child as we're getting ready for it and nagging me to pack during my LUNCH BREAK. I know I should be happy I'm going to Canada, but even though I'm happy I'm able to go, I don't want everyone I'm traveling with treating me like the scum of the earth every step of the way!
I'm working 9-5 every weekday for FREE. That's about a 40 hour week! Why? Because I'm incapable of getting a paying job! Just because I can't work year round, I'm rejected every time!
Speaking of work, even though it's for free, and as such everyone is really forgiving, it's out of my field. Each assignment I get, although it's something pretty easy a coworker could do in an hour, I have no idea what I'm doing. It takes me all day, or maybe even two days, because I have to spend so much time researching it.
I come home and then I have a VERY short evening where I'm usually bombarded with chores I need to do, which I can't do because I'm at work all of the time. After that, I really don't have time for anything fun before I'm sent off to bed. I've not found one day in which I could spend the day finishing painting a couple of pictures as presents to people! Oh but the weekend? Filled with more chores and places that I have to be or helping out someone (usually a thankless task).
"Oh be more assertive!" I hear. "Sounds like a personal problem." I fucking hate that phrase! Oh my life is full of a string of unfortunate circumstances that you refuse to hear about, and your advise is to cut me off with a sounds like you're a horrible person? I fucking hate myself enough thank you very much! >:'O
Sometimes all of this stress to try and be happy and successful; to make friends and keep people happy; and to help myself grow, change, and be happy really gets to me. I'd just like it if there was someone in my life who wasn't too busy or who wasn't bogged down with their dozens of troubles or who wasn't just too far way to at least support me in my endeavors. T^T Not to advise me with "Well it's something that you should do!" or "Well, wouldn't you like it more if you got paid" or "That's a personal problem" or "I don't want to hear it!" ;___;
Well if you excuse me, I'm going to stop typing paragraphs of emotional text into the great void that is the internet and try not to cry before I have to see people...