why oh why

[the_alis]

why do i attract the guys that never want me?
i just dont get it
it just makes me feel so alone and so wanted
i havent cried like this in so long
my head is throbbing
i seriouslk just feel like scratching again.
it'd be such a shit thing to do but right now i duno what else to do
why
fuck sake
the one time i finally let me guard down with a nice guy
and im left cold and alone again