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[the__turtle]

i hate examining my life because i know i will always find things that i choose not to see. like for one, how me and briana dont really even talk anymore...or here's another- how i always seem to get hurt with one thing or another. so im going to be completley honest right now and from here on out. sorry if it hurts anyone but im sick of pretending

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[youlameassbstrd]

yea so that only took me bout ten minutes to read lol but i think it was good for not only me you briana or tim it was basically good for everyone. seriously lawren i really can't say i have gone through what you have been goin through. honestly i don't think i have ever really had a "best friend" the closest thing i ever had was a family member. and whats really sad is the first time i got somethin that was almost as close as a real family member i left her for a slut. everyone makes mistakes throughout their lives, big ones and sometimes little ones. basically "leavin you in the dust" was one of the biggest mistakes i have ever made. considerin what had happened throughout last year i mostly block it all out, but really no matter how hard i try to block everything out, what i did to you always finds its way through. the memories that i do have of you last year are seriously amazing i honestly would never regret any of them. even the memories i have with briana when i met the both of you i was bout 2 years into this relationship that was shit, you two were the only girls i had talked to since i started to date the slut, im not sure exactly where i was tryin to go with that bout anyways you two were so much fun. i have never had what you guys HAVE. the closest thing i have is this cousin that is probably the best you could ask for considerin whatever mistake i made he knew how to work through them or forgive me over them, he is always there no matter if i want to kick his ass or he wants to kick mine. me and mike weren't really ever around each other when we were little only on vacations but we really started to get close when he moved by me. we became close as all hell similar to you and briana. really lawren i have talked to you a bunch of times about briana and really im sorry i don't regret them, but briana we both have to get over our shit seriously i tried one time before when i talked to you and we both need to work together. i don't agree how you are with lawren all the time as well i know you don't agree with how i am. lawren is probably right everyone needs to find basically there innerselves, i completely understand it is really awkward around me cus i feel really weird around you, even through its weird for me to say this but i really do wants to be your friend the few times i hung out with you and lawren out of school was really fun, im not goin to ask anythin of you towards "us" but at least work everythin out with lawren. tim i really don't know you at all so i don't have much to say to you except last year you tried to scratch me and if you ever did again ill drop you however you need to hold your mood swings in towards your friends. really i have the worse temper/ mood swings anyone can possibly have at 17, you and briana have both been a better friend then i have towards lawren so don't change it now. and for you miss lawren i could never tell you enough how sorry i really am, when we first started to date i realized so many things i should have noticed/done last year. lawren rachael dull you are an amazing person. your the sweetest prettiest smartiest thing ever. your intelligent, gorgeous, caring, loveble, and one of the best girl/friend anyone could ask for. always remember kid your a dream come true!<333

[adoration_]

Today I got the sweetest text from Lawren. It was intended for you and it totally made me smile because you two are perfect together. It said "Sean you are my darling"

I love talking to both of you.

[the__turtle]

lol im sorry about that amanda you were probably like 'creepsters'

[the__turtle]

thanks for the comment sean, it meant a lot to me. dont be sorry about things that happened in the past either..whats done is done and at the time its what you felt you had to or should do. and plus sean...i couldnt be happier with you. i mean...when i need a friend and someone to just run to or talk to...i know you're there and i know you always will be...'the benefit of being friends first..' lol just kidding....but yeah anyways thank you ♥