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i decieded that i am going to write in this. i keep on writing love letters to her everyday like i promised her i would when we were together..and it seems like its working, but i just dont want the world to see how i am not so strong and how i do ache everyday.
but let me fucking vent! because i cant open my mouth but hands instead
one. i cant believe shes fucking dead. it took her in a matter of two months. i wish i could of saw her one last time. said goodbye. do something. tell her she was a good godmother. i couldnt even look at him, he was so heartbroken in a way i havent seen before and never want to see again.
two. i dont want you to be ill. i dont know whats happening with you but if you died i dont know what i would do. i think you want me to be settled with my life just incase you die.
three. i am so tired of you not being with me. i am going crazy without you. i want my fucking wife back.
four. i lost my job for no fucking reason and shouldnt of quit the record store to work for that fucker. this is now going to fuck up my plans for leaving the midwest. i need to go west. i need to leave before winter. i wish i could take cala with me
five. i am so sad you are moving this month. i could barely even talk to you last night and really dont want to get lunch with you today. i have nothing to say anymore. im lost in my head. you are an amazing person an amazing friend and i will honestly miss you.
six. i cant stay here any longer but i have to. he went to jail and my bike is in his house and have no money to take a bus or train to go job hunting.
seven. we lay in bed all day and kiss. we do this everytime we are alone. but youre...straight. so you claim. but youve thought about it. just admit that you can see yourself with me. does natalie stop you? i would leave you the second i saw her but till then...]]\
eight. im going so sane that im crazy.
but let me fucking vent! because i cant open my mouth but hands instead
one. i cant believe shes fucking dead. it took her in a matter of two months. i wish i could of saw her one last time. said goodbye. do something. tell her she was a good godmother. i couldnt even look at him, he was so heartbroken in a way i havent seen before and never want to see again.
two. i dont want you to be ill. i dont know whats happening with you but if you died i dont know what i would do. i think you want me to be settled with my life just incase you die.
three. i am so tired of you not being with me. i am going crazy without you. i want my fucking wife back.
four. i lost my job for no fucking reason and shouldnt of quit the record store to work for that fucker. this is now going to fuck up my plans for leaving the midwest. i need to go west. i need to leave before winter. i wish i could take cala with me
five. i am so sad you are moving this month. i could barely even talk to you last night and really dont want to get lunch with you today. i have nothing to say anymore. im lost in my head. you are an amazing person an amazing friend and i will honestly miss you.
six. i cant stay here any longer but i have to. he went to jail and my bike is in his house and have no money to take a bus or train to go job hunting.
seven. we lay in bed all day and kiss. we do this everytime we are alone. but youre...straight. so you claim. but youve thought about it. just admit that you can see yourself with me. does natalie stop you? i would leave you the second i saw her but till then...]]\
eight. im going so sane that im crazy.