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[the___duckling]

Ok. This is my post apologizing for my last post which was nothing but a mix of intense emotions and heat. But I've never done well with heat. And I've never done well with memories. The problem is that, recently, when I think of things that have happened to me...I mean, when I am reminded of them, I get sick

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[hit_me_up_style]

You know...I don't know if this is what you want to hear or expected to hear...but I hope you know that you'll always have me. Seriously. I'm never going to stop being 100% in love with you, because for me, you've always been in my life. Despite last year, which I must say, we've put behind us, you have had a huge part of my heart since sixth grade. And even when we WERE fighting, it didn't matter. I still loved you. No matter how many times I denied it. And you know what? I think that proves just about everything. That everything I've ever felt towards you was love. I mean, how many people do you know who can pull back into a friendship (and a good one at that) after everything we put eachother through? And I know we aren't friends now because we think we "owe" eachother. It's because we share so much, and we always will. That's all we need, my dear.

I have to tell you, from personal experience, please don't let these bad feelings overwhelm you. Because they are only temporary. And you may feel like the happy things are only temporary as well, but they aren't. Once you get back into the flow of things, everything will become natural again. And you won't even remember what these bad feelings were like. And if they do come back again, I will be behind you completely. And so many others will be too.

I'm not sure if you've ever really known who so many people love you, Allison. It isn't because of first impressions, or anything stupid like that. It's because you have an ability to open up to people, that many don't possess. You have a tendancy to make others feel extremely confident and happy. But at the same time, everyone respects you for who you are, for your talents and weaknesses, and for your pure love. You have an incredible power in you, Allison. And its never ceased to amaze me how much you can love others, even when the world sucks. And you should know, that having that quality is one of the best things anyone can have.

I love you.

Emma