Wow, Ty, you're amazing. And I thought I grew up fast, jeez, I think its really rare to find a male who is actually ahead of his years because usually guys mature much later than girls (thats why I have always dated older guys). I think it will be good for you to be out of high school because then you can be around older girls and away from the whole high school drama shit. Don't get me wrong, life is filled with high school drama, but once you're out of high school itself it becomes easier to seperate yourself from it all. As dumb as this may sound, I'm so proud of you. I wanted to read this entry over and over again.
The only one thing I want to say is that if you do get a chance to talk to Jilly be careful what you say. I've leared from expierence that the absolute worst thing to say is along the lines of how she is immature or whatever, which of course is just a message that can be conveyed in a million and one ways, and finds itself as an undercurrent of things that are all too easy to say. And I know it my expierece that once you seperate yourself from the pain (as you seem to be doing as well as is possible) that you realize that all those things you wanted to say really would have been only out of disapointment, anger, pain, or you name it and that they really aren't the things you really meant or should have said. Before you say anything make sure you remember to put yourself in her shoes and listen to what you are saying- which I know you do but can so easily be forgotten in times like these. Because even if things didn't work out, and for whatever reason they didn't, she was still a chapter of your life, and you a chapter of hers, and the trick is to try to make it so you both grow from it, and that is what makes it all so very beautiful, and what helps me to be excited for all that is to come. Life is all about learning and growing and to be that is beautiful. Anyway, be ware of things that can get in the way of that growth- especailly things said out of anger or disapointment or what not. Because all in all, to quote ani, you're "both good people who've done some bad things" and the only difference between you and her is that she is on a different page, a different chapter than you. Be thankful for the growth she gave to you and know that you gave the same to her.
Haha, thank you sooo much for the advice. That’s exactly why I fear having to talk to her or see because I've some of the notes I was thinking about passing to her or so on, and have caught all of that unneeded animosity that should not be in it.
The only one thing I want to say is that if you do get a chance to talk to Jilly be careful what you say. I've leared from expierence that the absolute worst thing to say is along the lines of how she is immature or whatever, which of course is just a message that can be conveyed in a million and one ways, and finds itself as an undercurrent of things that are all too easy to say. And I know it my expierece that once you seperate yourself from the pain (as you seem to be doing as well as is possible) that you realize that all those things you wanted to say really would have been only out of disapointment, anger, pain, or you name it and that they really aren't the things you really meant or should have said. Before you say anything make sure you remember to put yourself in her shoes and listen to what you are saying- which I know you do but can so easily be forgotten in times like these. Because even if things didn't work out, and for whatever reason they didn't, she was still a chapter of your life, and you a chapter of hers, and the trick is to try to make it so you both grow from it, and that is what makes it all so very beautiful, and what helps me to be excited for all that is to come. Life is all about learning and growing and to be that is beautiful. Anyway, be ware of things that can get in the way of that growth- especailly things said out of anger or disapointment or what not. Because all in all, to quote ani, you're "both good people who've done some bad things" and the only difference between you and her is that she is on a different page, a different chapter than you. Be thankful for the growth she gave to you and know that you gave the same to her.
Phew, sorry that was so long.
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