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I'm an idiot....all he has to do is call me and be sweet and I get excited....its dumb...he is just going to break up with me again....history will repeat itself and I will be crying and alone soon enough...but I let myself believe that he really does care about me....that he realizes I could find someone else if I wanted to but I want him...I don't know why I want him...its not like he has treated me the greatest...on the contrary he dosen't treat me so great haha...I'm fucked up thats the only solution...oh well I'm going to plan a date