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I dont know what to say in this entry. I just know I need to write something. Today was a very nice day for the most part. Froogy and I played some Game Cube games (I pwned her btw) and then Jason joined us with movie-ness. So we all went into the theatre and watched Analyze This (which was most amusing because my...great great grandpa was it?...was mentioned in it...maybe even in it) and then some comedy central. Afterwards we basically just molested Froogy which was amusing. When she left (her mom came in at a very awkward moment...) Jason and I chilled and watched Stella and then he left. It was a nice night.
Now, on the other hand, I feel somewhat betrayed, upset. Ive explained how I feel about it, yet it comes up anyway. I have been trying to keep it out of my head...I know its there, but still every time its brought up it just hurts so much. I dont think it should but it does. Its non of my business really, i dont think, and i suppose its not that bad. I dont know...it just hurts. I thought there was some kind of deal in place...one that would allow it to not happen again. I guess I was wrong. Maybe thats why it hurts...because its a feeling of betrayal. My god, I hate this. I wish it would stop.
He doesnt even seem to notice...
Now, on the other hand, I feel somewhat betrayed, upset. Ive explained how I feel about it, yet it comes up anyway. I have been trying to keep it out of my head...I know its there, but still every time its brought up it just hurts so much. I dont think it should but it does. Its non of my business really, i dont think, and i suppose its not that bad. I dont know...it just hurts. I thought there was some kind of deal in place...one that would allow it to not happen again. I guess I was wrong. Maybe thats why it hurts...because its a feeling of betrayal. My god, I hate this. I wish it would stop.
He doesnt even seem to notice...