ignorance + fear = hatred.
Things have been going suprisingly well lately. My aunt came down to visit for the week and she is a ton of fun! I can pretty much tell her anything and she will be cool with it. For some reason, my mom is this incredibly nice person when she is around which is a really good thing for us. We went shopping today and my mom bought me some new expensive make-up. She's never really been affectionate or nuturing toward me but she has this weird thing of showing her love by buying me stuff. Yea, it's weird, but I'm not going to complain. Free shit... I'll take it! My grandfather tried to set me up with some guy today, which I find to be very very strange. He kicks me out of his house and then tries to set me up with his friend's grandson?! What the fuck is this shit? haha. Apparently, he's really cute and in a band but I'm totally not interested and totally gay. Instead of going on this "blind date", I went out to a movie with some friends. We saw "A day without a mexican" which was pretty cool-- gave me a new perspective on shit. I've had my share of bad experiences with mexicans/latinos but I've also had plenty of bad experiences with whites as well. Anyway, I didn't really ever have anything serious against mexicans but I must admit I might have been a little biased before (who isn't?). This movie sort of showed the importance of these people in our communities. I sort of appreciate mexicans more now... and besides, why be bitter? its dumb... ignorance + fear = hatred. I say "live and let live", who gives a fuck about the other stuff? After the movie, I had a thoughtful and long conversation with Stan. I love just talking to people, figuring out what they are all about. We talked about everything and anything for 3 hours and then did our message routine. I think that people should take the time to talk to each other as much as possible. I love the fact that I have people in my life who understand me 100% and who are willing to listen to me and share their problems as well. It's crazy how close our bond is. I think alot of it has to do with our daily conversations. If we don't talk for like 2 days, I feel like I missed out on so much! Lea and I talk alot too... when we are together. She's just busy alot and I totally understand. My best times with her are when we just cuddle up next to each other in bed and talk about everything. I love those moments and I know there will be tons more to come. I already miss her! BTW, the diet is going pretty good! I already lost 5 pounds in a matter of a few days! I want to lose 10 more within 2 weeks and I know I can do this! I feeel sooo much better now that I haven't been eating a ton of junk! O... and I get the house to myself the 13th-20th... sometime in there, for about a week! Not sure exactly what to do with the time yet, but I know LA pride is that weekend! Maybe I'll jus have a bunch of ppl stay over and then cruise up to LA for pride?! hmmm...sounds like fun. Well I'm tired so yea hopefully someone read all this... and if you did, you fucking rock! And I love you!