Nothing to make fun of. I think all of us suffer from what you just explained on some level. Mine is pretty intense. I want to fit in and be liked and be interesting and fun to everyone. I want everyone around me to be happy and proud and feel like they belong. I dislike hurting anyone's feelings or doing anything which I think will be upsetting to them. So much so that I end up stifling my thoughts and actions and angering myself so I don't anger others. This of course always backfires. It's so much a problem with specific people and events that I end up doing myself an injustice. I sometimes am mildly ashamed of myself and contemplate telling lies to morph what is really happening to something I think the other party will approve of. Really it's a huge personal challenge to keep in check. I will at some point become 100% okay with who I am and what I do.
I admire people like Evan who are so unapologetic for who they are and what they do. It's amazing to see them unabashedly be themselves at all times.
On the flip side, Evan lacks sensitivity and quite often pisses others off, myself included. I wish he had more sensitivity quite a bit.
So you see, the grass is always greener...
Which of course offers you no advice. I just wanted to hijack your journal for a bit ;-P
yep -- definitely requires some balance. Because I'm almost always erring on the side of caution, I think I could use a little more candidness though. Sounds like maybe he balances you out well in that way ;)
I admire people like Evan who are so unapologetic for who they are and what they do. It's amazing to see them unabashedly be themselves at all times.
On the flip side, Evan lacks sensitivity and quite often pisses others off, myself included. I wish he had more sensitivity quite a bit.
So you see, the grass is always greener...
Which of course offers you no advice. I just wanted to hijack your journal for a bit ;-P
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