wow what a bitch
what could possibly make you put yourself on this pedistal above me? what the hell was up with those nasty looks? do you think you're BETTER than me? i am filled with such hatred. go away, stop crowding my mind. for so long i was confused, now you just piss me off. i had respect for you on every level there possibly was. i used to want to do ANYTHING for you, i would give you the world. i don't want to look at you. no pictures. no videos. i don't want to listen to your voice if you leave a message on my machine. i can't find the words to describe just how peeved i am. i doubt you know who you are. you wouldn't ever think i could get this mad at you. didn't you see me crying in that corner? didn't you want to know what was wrong? i don't care if i'm "annoying" or if my actions don't please you. don't speak to me again.
as for the people that i do love, it would probably be best if you stayed away from me. i don't want to take my agressions out on you. i'm growing cold to the world. i don't care about rules or grades or any hobbies i used to. i just want to curl up in my room. at night when i'm trying to fall asleep i start thinking about confrontations i will have with people who have been pissing me off and i start yelling at them in my head while i'm trying to fall asleep. i swear steam could come out of my ears. my heart is going to explode cause it's been beating so hard lately cause i've been so darn mad all the time. i'm really trying to hold my tongue. don't bother writing any messages here. i just want prayers. and if you really want to say something to me, I/M me or write me an email. (its_julie_yay@hotmail) that would mean a lot more, cause it shows that you aren't lazy. GAR.
person of the day: my sister karen. thanks for being there and helping me through and offering to listen. i love you
as for the people that i do love, it would probably be best if you stayed away from me. i don't want to take my agressions out on you. i'm growing cold to the world. i don't care about rules or grades or any hobbies i used to. i just want to curl up in my room. at night when i'm trying to fall asleep i start thinking about confrontations i will have with people who have been pissing me off and i start yelling at them in my head while i'm trying to fall asleep. i swear steam could come out of my ears. my heart is going to explode cause it's been beating so hard lately cause i've been so darn mad all the time. i'm really trying to hold my tongue. don't bother writing any messages here. i just want prayers. and if you really want to say something to me, I/M me or write me an email. (its_julie_yay@hotmail) that would mean a lot more, cause it shows that you aren't lazy. GAR.
person of the day: my sister karen. thanks for being there and helping me through and offering to listen. i love you