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[thatgirl_____]

its actually quite crazy how  life works, granted  my rocky road  on this map has been paved i still come acrosss some bumps in the road that i am fighting with to go  over smoothly but everynow and then obsticals of the roughness comes back to haunt me and sets me back a few miles.Why everything cant just make sense, is a question that stumbles up on my mind, but now ir ealize because when you tackle an obsticale everything else becomes a whole  lot more clear in these  eyes that veiw such a ugly world infront of her while residing in her parents home.These words i speak may not make much sense to you or in generall much sense at all, but ths heart and head aches and the only way to reach ultimate peace and grace within is to write about it. Speaking to others doesnt really change much of the siutation, but wrighting makes me realize how i really feel within.Untill right now i never really knew the differnce between a leading a life that is yours and leading a life that is free, im so sick of all these countless fights and lies, this is so typical for all of us to pretend that everything is alright when in reality its more then a shame then anyone of us knows how to deal with anymore, i now know that nothing will ever be the same but the faith and love that remains wihtin this heart of mine that longs for comfort.

ya know how akward it is bumping into your first boyfriend's current girlfriend when hes miles away.