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So, tomorrow Brett, Jarett, and Albert are going to go apply for the apartment, and we possibly move in this upcoming weekend. This just means i'm one step closer to once again living with someone i rarely see and barely spend any time with. Even on his fucking day off tomorrow, and the last day that i'm here at his place for the weekend, Brett has a fucking meeting to go to now. So even if i wanted to tag along to the leasing office i couldn't because that's where he's going right after they finish up over there.
I am just so fucking annoyed lately. Even on his days off he's stuck doing work related shit. Not that he minds, because let's face it, he is the ultimate workoholic, but seriously? And then earlier, he said "well we're going to be living together soon." Yeah, so i can what? Watch him sleep? Because really, that's the only difference i can see. As of right now he's working 6 days a week and I only see him like ONE day on the weekend (full day anyway), if i'm lucky. Not so lucky this weekend. It's just incredibly frustrating and i can't wait until i'm working again so that i don't have to sit around all day thinking about how much it fucking blows that he is never around. I'm just in such a bad mood because of it all at this point. I'm glad he enjoys his job. I'm glad that good things work related keep happening for him.
Lately i'm just beginning to think that moving back home would be the easiest thing to do. I mean i love him, but i'm not ready to be depressed all over again that i'm living with someone who is totally wrapped up in his work and is never around. It didn't hit me as hard with Marc because he worked 5 days a week and by the end of our relationship I didn't enjoy spending as much time with him anymore, but this isn't the case here. And seeing the way he is with work and everything like that has been a pretty big eye opener for me. I don't have all of the cutesy unrealistic expectations for the future anymore and i think not being around him as much has allowed me to feel that way more and more lately.
I don't mean to come off as incredibly selfish as i'm sure this can be taken. I just miss spending time with my boyfriend. If one more person asks why he is never around my head is going to fucking explode.
This mood has really gotten the best of me today. I think i'll hit the sack early tonight. He doesn't get home until like 10 anyway.
I am just so fucking annoyed lately. Even on his days off he's stuck doing work related shit. Not that he minds, because let's face it, he is the ultimate workoholic, but seriously? And then earlier, he said "well we're going to be living together soon." Yeah, so i can what? Watch him sleep? Because really, that's the only difference i can see. As of right now he's working 6 days a week and I only see him like ONE day on the weekend (full day anyway), if i'm lucky. Not so lucky this weekend. It's just incredibly frustrating and i can't wait until i'm working again so that i don't have to sit around all day thinking about how much it fucking blows that he is never around. I'm just in such a bad mood because of it all at this point. I'm glad he enjoys his job. I'm glad that good things work related keep happening for him.
Lately i'm just beginning to think that moving back home would be the easiest thing to do. I mean i love him, but i'm not ready to be depressed all over again that i'm living with someone who is totally wrapped up in his work and is never around. It didn't hit me as hard with Marc because he worked 5 days a week and by the end of our relationship I didn't enjoy spending as much time with him anymore, but this isn't the case here. And seeing the way he is with work and everything like that has been a pretty big eye opener for me. I don't have all of the cutesy unrealistic expectations for the future anymore and i think not being around him as much has allowed me to feel that way more and more lately.
I don't mean to come off as incredibly selfish as i'm sure this can be taken. I just miss spending time with my boyfriend. If one more person asks why he is never around my head is going to fucking explode.
This mood has really gotten the best of me today. I think i'll hit the sack early tonight. He doesn't get home until like 10 anyway.