where the hell have i been?
hey everyone. i don't know if you people still read this but it's good for me to update this. kind of catalogues my life haha.
soo i'm about to head up to the big STL for school, and i'm extremely excited. i don't leave until the 24th, so it'll be after all you fools leave. i am going to ft. walton (the destin area) next week to visit my grandparents. i love florida and i'm glad i'm going but the main purpose is for me, my brother, and my dad to see my gradfather for probably the last time. it is depressing, but we're glad he has lived this long because we didn't think he would. his will to live is the reason he is still alive, and he is living what he has left in life at home with his wife of over 60 years. it's really strange to me, thinking about how one day, assuming i live until i'm in my 80s, i will get to that point. i will have gone through all that life, all those issues, all that love, and i, too, will have to compile everything in my head before i leave this earth. it's not depressing to me, it's just a learning experience. my other grandfather was not quite in his right mind when he was dying, so he didn't have to live day by day knowing those days are his last. i'm glad i get to see him one more time, but i'm scared about it. when i leave it will be my final goodbye, and i don't know if people ever know how to deal with that.
on a much less depressing note, i finally got a tattoo! woo i know. it's a search cross on my hip where my mother and father will never see it haha. because if they do...well i probably won't be going to college. but i'm very happy about it and i thought about it for a long period of time. and it's real cute.
i hope all of you have a safe trip up and please keep updating so i know how your life is going. even if i don't talk to you much. i want to know about each and everyone and the events in your life as i no where near.
i hope to see all of you throughout the years, but just know no matter what i pray that everyone has an exceedingly great life.
soo i'm about to head up to the big STL for school, and i'm extremely excited. i don't leave until the 24th, so it'll be after all you fools leave. i am going to ft. walton (the destin area) next week to visit my grandparents. i love florida and i'm glad i'm going but the main purpose is for me, my brother, and my dad to see my gradfather for probably the last time. it is depressing, but we're glad he has lived this long because we didn't think he would. his will to live is the reason he is still alive, and he is living what he has left in life at home with his wife of over 60 years. it's really strange to me, thinking about how one day, assuming i live until i'm in my 80s, i will get to that point. i will have gone through all that life, all those issues, all that love, and i, too, will have to compile everything in my head before i leave this earth. it's not depressing to me, it's just a learning experience. my other grandfather was not quite in his right mind when he was dying, so he didn't have to live day by day knowing those days are his last. i'm glad i get to see him one more time, but i'm scared about it. when i leave it will be my final goodbye, and i don't know if people ever know how to deal with that.
on a much less depressing note, i finally got a tattoo! woo i know. it's a search cross on my hip where my mother and father will never see it haha. because if they do...well i probably won't be going to college. but i'm very happy about it and i thought about it for a long period of time. and it's real cute.
i hope all of you have a safe trip up and please keep updating so i know how your life is going. even if i don't talk to you much. i want to know about each and everyone and the events in your life as i no where near.
i hope to see all of you throughout the years, but just know no matter what i pray that everyone has an exceedingly great life.