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[that_girl_420]

I gave you everything I had to give
I took you back after all the lies and deceit
you had
I can't believe you could look me in the eyes
and tell me you love me
How could you talk about marriage
Then you tell me the pain you give me
is intentional
You tell me the lies, the abuse
you give me is obvious
and how stupid can I be
But everything happened so abruptly,
it's hard to change gears so fast
I can't handle your indecisiveness,
your bipolar tendencies
All of a sudden it hit me
You hate me, You truly do despise me
I am stupid I guess, I cared to much
I'm ashamed for believing you
I'm ashamed that you fooled me again
I'm ashamed that you can make me
feel like I'm worthless, ugly, lifeless
How can someone be so malicious, so uncaring
You gave me these insecurities that I have
You chose this life You chose this destiny
you chose to walk the other way, you chose to be
free from any kind of responsibility or commitment
You made this broken home for our son
I guess its easier to be selfish
Every single tear isn't worth it anymore
I can't handle this at all
I want you out of my life completely and my sons
How do I know you won't do the same thing
you did to me, to our son
I don't want our son to obtain the feeling of
attachment towards you
and you walk away from his life and give him
the feeling of heartbreak, failure
at such a young age
You can't even hold a job down, you haven't
paid one penny towards this child of ours
How do you expect me to ever trust you as
a father emotionally, and financially to him?
I'm the mother of your child, and you can't even
respect me?
Where has your morals, your respect of women went?
I gave you everything I had and the only thing you
gave me benefited yourself in the end
You selfish selfish bastard