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i'm seriously so pathetic. I miss him so much, I don't understand how I'm so dependent on him. It scares me. He hasn't return my phone call, and it scares me becuase what if this is truely it. what if this is the last time? I was looking at my old xanga journals and this is really reminding me of the first serious relationship, everything is to similar. Both Erics have had a bad home life, and were addicted to something. and both have dumped me and gotten back with me dumped me so on. And I'm starting think that maybe all of this is me. That maybe I drive people to act the way they do. I don't know. I just need to talk to him and try to straighten everything out. How long is someone going to hold this over me? I'm the kind of person that forgives and forgets. God he knows what exactly to piss me off.