life is lookin' up...
yeah...so things are gettin' better n life doesn't suck so much anymore. me n cliff are back together an he's been stayin at my house the past couple of days, and that's been nice. my mom is crazy as ever but what else is new? finally, work has been giving me hours finally...my parkland courses got dropped cuz my dad didn't pay like he said he would. asshole. i'm so sick of my folks bullshyt...i really need to get out of my house!! so i guess that means i need to start saving my money. i can't be spending it so recklessly anymore...and since i'm not drinking or smoking anymore, it should be a little easier...but it isn't. blah.
i was definitely losing my mind for a while the past couple of weeks, but i'm slowly regaining sanity. it'll take a little time for the pain to fade away, cuz it really, really hurt...but through time and with love it'll eventually fade...hopefully.
this time really showed me who some of my real friends are though. and for that i'm thankful. i'm a little bitter towards some people and just because of some of the circumstances...but i'll deal with that. i'm just worried about having to deal with shit alone...it's hard to rely on someone when they've broken you before. but forgiveness comes easily when you love someone...i'm watching my back more this time though. even though i know i'll soon go back to trusting fully. i know i'm rambling and probably not making sence to most of you, but to those that know me, it needs no explanation, and again, i'm grateful for those real friends. so, i guess, thanks, guys.
i was definitely losing my mind for a while the past couple of weeks, but i'm slowly regaining sanity. it'll take a little time for the pain to fade away, cuz it really, really hurt...but through time and with love it'll eventually fade...hopefully.
this time really showed me who some of my real friends are though. and for that i'm thankful. i'm a little bitter towards some people and just because of some of the circumstances...but i'll deal with that. i'm just worried about having to deal with shit alone...it's hard to rely on someone when they've broken you before. but forgiveness comes easily when you love someone...i'm watching my back more this time though. even though i know i'll soon go back to trusting fully. i know i'm rambling and probably not making sence to most of you, but to those that know me, it needs no explanation, and again, i'm grateful for those real friends. so, i guess, thanks, guys.