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Ok so tomorrow is Valentine's Day.
I guess I shouldn't expect anything from Andy considering we haven't established what we are; if anything. But I would love more than anything if he sent me flowers. I never got sent flowers before in my life. I'm not expecting anything; so when/if I don't get anything I won't be disappointed. But I feel if that Andy does do something for me; that it means something about "us". If he doesn't..well...god I don't know. Errrmmmph I hate this crap.
I watched the Grammys tonight. I was uber pleased with everything. Except that they didn't pay tribute to Dimebag. That's not right. Just b/c his style of music was different doesn't mean he doesn't deserve a little respect. Fuckers.
Anyway.
I need to finish making my ramen noodles.
Then spades.
Bed time.
I wish Andy were in it though...what's depressing is that I think I want to be with him more than he wants to be with me. I haven't fallen so hard for a guy since Dean. Andy gives me the butterflies, makes me nervous, every time he touches me or kisses me I savor b/c I don't know if I'll get to do it again. I love how he'll dip me and lay one on me. ::Sigh:: I'm too caught up in him too fast. I fell hard on my face. Am I in love with him? No not even close. But I think about him a lot and I've been putting other things off for him. Sad.
I wonder if he ever thinks about me....or anyone for that matter. I think about people 24/7..people online, my family, friends, coworkers...I just think so much...gaaah. I wonder whos' minds I come across.
I guess I shouldn't expect anything from Andy considering we haven't established what we are; if anything. But I would love more than anything if he sent me flowers. I never got sent flowers before in my life. I'm not expecting anything; so when/if I don't get anything I won't be disappointed. But I feel if that Andy does do something for me; that it means something about "us". If he doesn't..well...god I don't know. Errrmmmph I hate this crap.
I watched the Grammys tonight. I was uber pleased with everything. Except that they didn't pay tribute to Dimebag. That's not right. Just b/c his style of music was different doesn't mean he doesn't deserve a little respect. Fuckers.
Anyway.
I need to finish making my ramen noodles.
Then spades.
Bed time.
I wish Andy were in it though...what's depressing is that I think I want to be with him more than he wants to be with me. I haven't fallen so hard for a guy since Dean. Andy gives me the butterflies, makes me nervous, every time he touches me or kisses me I savor b/c I don't know if I'll get to do it again. I love how he'll dip me and lay one on me. ::Sigh:: I'm too caught up in him too fast. I fell hard on my face. Am I in love with him? No not even close. But I think about him a lot and I've been putting other things off for him. Sad.
I wonder if he ever thinks about me....or anyone for that matter. I think about people 24/7..people online, my family, friends, coworkers...I just think so much...gaaah. I wonder whos' minds I come across.