I will trust you.. because I know what a promise will do.
Home again.
I've been rather discontent with myself lately, due to the fact that it seems ive completly given up on this job/college search.. I still havent heard anything from FLCC so i suppose i could apply to another school.. Maybe one closer by, possibly. I'm not sure. Noone seems to be hiring, especially child care... which is what i would very much like to get back into. Thats when i was the most content, it seems. I really enjoyed it, and i miss it.
I actually felt good about what i was doing, and felt good about myself. im debating, possibly, if i do somehow get accepted to college to go for Early Childhood or to become a teacher. Its obviously what i enjoy, right.
Maybe tomorrow i'll give Anne a call and see if shes needing anyone atm... I guess assistant teacher isnt too bad when you have nothing else. Plus its right in Livonia, so not too far... Just still rather difficult.. because Kevin's being a prick lately.
He and Heather are not getting along this week at all, it seems. Everytime i see them or hear from them theyre always in a shitty mood. It's getting rather aggrivating... Apparenlty hes spending all the money and not on bills and whatnot and Heathers finally coming to the realization that he's not "perfect".
I dont know. I need to do something. I suppose i will definetly get a hold of Anne tomorrow. She helped me out last time. I think i liked Building Blocks better... but its not as good of a daycare... Although i did get paid more, sadly.
I just feel like im doing nothing with my life, and its depressing.
I got home today and they were in a shouting match, yet again. Noone was talking to eachother in any sort of nice manor, and i just ate dinner and went in my room and watched some tele and ended up falling asleep til about 11ish and got online.
I have basically done nothing productive and i'm rather aggravated with myself because it just seems like its falling apart in some context.
I suppose i just need to get my act together.
I do enjoy Joseph, don't get my wrong. Thats basically the only thing going right at the moment. I'm home tonight for the first night since Friday and it sucks because i just would like to lie by his side and close my eyes and fall asleep, but im here... and bored. and in a rather shitty mood. Debating bed...
I have to do something though, i suppose. I would much prefer college to a full time job.... But .. something has to be done.
I've been rather discontent with myself lately, due to the fact that it seems ive completly given up on this job/college search.. I still havent heard anything from FLCC so i suppose i could apply to another school.. Maybe one closer by, possibly. I'm not sure. Noone seems to be hiring, especially child care... which is what i would very much like to get back into. Thats when i was the most content, it seems. I really enjoyed it, and i miss it.
I actually felt good about what i was doing, and felt good about myself. im debating, possibly, if i do somehow get accepted to college to go for Early Childhood or to become a teacher. Its obviously what i enjoy, right.
Maybe tomorrow i'll give Anne a call and see if shes needing anyone atm... I guess assistant teacher isnt too bad when you have nothing else. Plus its right in Livonia, so not too far... Just still rather difficult.. because Kevin's being a prick lately.
He and Heather are not getting along this week at all, it seems. Everytime i see them or hear from them theyre always in a shitty mood. It's getting rather aggrivating... Apparenlty hes spending all the money and not on bills and whatnot and Heathers finally coming to the realization that he's not "perfect".
I dont know. I need to do something. I suppose i will definetly get a hold of Anne tomorrow. She helped me out last time. I think i liked Building Blocks better... but its not as good of a daycare... Although i did get paid more, sadly.
I just feel like im doing nothing with my life, and its depressing.
I got home today and they were in a shouting match, yet again. Noone was talking to eachother in any sort of nice manor, and i just ate dinner and went in my room and watched some tele and ended up falling asleep til about 11ish and got online.
I have basically done nothing productive and i'm rather aggravated with myself because it just seems like its falling apart in some context.
I suppose i just need to get my act together.
I do enjoy Joseph, don't get my wrong. Thats basically the only thing going right at the moment. I'm home tonight for the first night since Friday and it sucks because i just would like to lie by his side and close my eyes and fall asleep, but im here... and bored. and in a rather shitty mood. Debating bed...
I have to do something though, i suppose. I would much prefer college to a full time job.... But .. something has to be done.