boys suck
I am really tired. 8am classes are not cool because I have to get up @ 6:47 am for them. And last night I was on the phone with my boyfriend till like 2am because I made him feel bad about himself.
See, he didn't call me all day yesterday. All.day. And he knows this is the one thing that really bothers me...and he's done it several times, knowing that I hate it. So why does he do it? I do not know.
So I'm like, what are you doing that keeps you so occupied? Because neither do you work nor go to school. And hello, I do both, and I still manage to find time to call. Apparantly, that was an *ouch*, or so he felt.
But it was how I was feeling. Now he feels that he's not doing anything for me. Not only is he in Maryland, but he feels like he's not keeping my attention either. Which he is; if he wasn't holding my attention, I wouldn't care if I didn't hear from him.
Frankly, I was a lil annoyed when I first started talking to him last night...and I took it out on him. For due cause, I believe. But then he just got so insecure that I began to wish I never said anything.
It might even make matters worse that my mom doesn't know we're together. Is it horrible that I'm waiting for him to get this job before I tell her?
See, he didn't call me all day yesterday. All.day. And he knows this is the one thing that really bothers me...and he's done it several times, knowing that I hate it. So why does he do it? I do not know.
So I'm like, what are you doing that keeps you so occupied? Because neither do you work nor go to school. And hello, I do both, and I still manage to find time to call. Apparantly, that was an *ouch*, or so he felt.
But it was how I was feeling. Now he feels that he's not doing anything for me. Not only is he in Maryland, but he feels like he's not keeping my attention either. Which he is; if he wasn't holding my attention, I wouldn't care if I didn't hear from him.
Frankly, I was a lil annoyed when I first started talking to him last night...and I took it out on him. For due cause, I believe. But then he just got so insecure that I began to wish I never said anything.
It might even make matters worse that my mom doesn't know we're together. Is it horrible that I'm waiting for him to get this job before I tell her?