I dunno why that last one didnt post
but this one is the true way of how i'm feeling today. I'm lashing out at people because Im utterly sick of nj and the way it has treated me. I'm done I'm fucking done! I have barely any friends (in nj compaired to ma) and they seem further and further away with no car i hate my life sometimes so much so that I cry in secret. I know one of my friends have recently told me to stop my "poor pitty me shit", what the fuck else am i suppose to feel I want to litterally set my car on fire even though I know ins will not cover that. I just wanna watch the fucker burn. It has broken my heart at about the same time my heart was breaking cuz of rich. It couldnt wait a few weeks let my heart heal? Let me absorb everything?! Rich is on the verge of a nervous breakdown and I already had mine. I can't wait til the day that the frigging loan is paid off (if I have no car in prospect yet or already own a new one) that fucking black madza 626 is being towed somewhere nice and quite and I"m dousing the thing in gas and lighting a fucking match! I'll toast soy dogs on a stick over that fucker! Maybe I shouldnt listen to angry german music when I blog.... lol