So maybe I've changed a little...

[tha_virgin_mary]

This may sound cliché, but I feel as if I've changed as a person since I became famous (or infamous, depending on what you know and who you talk to.) I've become more calm; I've gotten more mellow, as opposed to the chatty, bubbly girl people were used to. I've become more confident, yet more humble. I was once full of myself, as a barrier against my insecurity. Now, I'm just here. It no longer matters what people think, as long as I'm content and doing what I feel is best for me. I take nothing and no one for granted - people say all kinds of things, and sometimes it can be hard to tell what they really mean. I once went by their words, and trusted them, because I felt I had no reason not to. I was young and naive, I guess, and the worst part is, I didn't even know it. I figured I was well-rounded, socially adept, and incredibly mature.

I've become much more skeptical now of peoples' words and motives, but that doesn't mean I have become unkind. I'm just more aware, I suppose. I've become more cynical; my once continuous optimism has worn off, but my take on life is still positive, and whatever bitter residue left can be turned into laughter.

I've also become less vain, as well as less self conscious. I've become less narcissistic, and no longer feel the need to fish for compliments. It doesn't matter what people think anymore, as long as I'M happy.

And that's what I learned from being portrayed in the most unflattering light: the true lesson of humility and REAL self-acceptance.

What happens next, only God knows...