ho hum
it's not really fair is it? i dont get to talk to him, i dont get to hear his voice or see his face. i dont even get the priveledge of knowing that he's a 20 min bus ride away. and now, i dont even get to see his words. he doesnt write to me. he doesn't respond when i write.
yes, he's focusing on getting his life in order. and yes, i'm an understanding girlfriend and completely understanding of his need to do so.
but is it too selfish of me to ask that he leave me a myspace msg every now and then saying "hey baby, i'm thinking about you and i miss you too. be good. ~cory" is that too much? a simple line like that? *sigh* why do i feel so miserable for wanting that much.
i wish i could at least be able to say i love you to him. but i'm not supposed to, and i feel equally awful for wanting that as well.
and i really dont wanna cry myself to sleep again, though i feel like i'm tyler durden in fight club, an insomniac who has one release- tears.
yeah, my insomnia's returned as well. it was all fine and well when i had cory to fall asleep next to or hear his voice before bed.
what's that line from that hawthorne heights song "single silver bullet shot right through my heart just to prove i can survive without you." it all makes sense. except i didnt choose this bullet.
yes, he's focusing on getting his life in order. and yes, i'm an understanding girlfriend and completely understanding of his need to do so.
but is it too selfish of me to ask that he leave me a myspace msg every now and then saying "hey baby, i'm thinking about you and i miss you too. be good. ~cory" is that too much? a simple line like that? *sigh* why do i feel so miserable for wanting that much.
i wish i could at least be able to say i love you to him. but i'm not supposed to, and i feel equally awful for wanting that as well.
and i really dont wanna cry myself to sleep again, though i feel like i'm tyler durden in fight club, an insomniac who has one release- tears.
yeah, my insomnia's returned as well. it was all fine and well when i had cory to fall asleep next to or hear his voice before bed.
what's that line from that hawthorne heights song "single silver bullet shot right through my heart just to prove i can survive without you." it all makes sense. except i didnt choose this bullet.