Your world collapsing..........
"You know how sweet this rose is, regardless of it's vicious thorns that seem to turn others away. In fact, you've held it before and you are willing to grip it's thorns and bleed just to hold it again. mi subió you call it. But no matter how much you want it, it's been tucked away in that dark corner, fed that poisonous water and left to wither and fade out of your reach."
It's funny how this world works. It's a long sickening cycle of "I told you so's". Once again, I the goodguy, have to finish last. Someone has to finish last, right? Someone has to be squashed, spit on, and laughed at for the good of everyone. It's human nature. I'm tired of this always happening to me.
I found out today that the reason that my girlfriend didn't want to tell anyone that were back together is that she's been messing with another guy. I shoulda saw it coming, but my mind was too crowded by her bullshit to figure it out. The reason we broke up in the first place is that she was doing everything in her power to piss me off, because she knew I'd dump her. Four months weve been together. I broke my vow to wear protection until I found my wife for her. I lied to my parents for her. And worst of all I turned on a friend for her. "I don't know love, I've heard of it, looked for it, and even thought I found it at one point, but it wasn't love. It was a lie. It was her." I used to think that I was supposed to be with someone and that I was supposed to be happy all of the time, but I was wrong. I don't know what to do next, perhaps I should chalk up another L like I usually do, but this time doesn't hurt like the others. This time I'm too hurt to cry. Thi time i don't know what to do, because I never expected a blow like this. She doesn't know that i know yet and I guess thats for the best, but as soon as I finish this entry, I'm calling her.
I'm too pissed to talk about anything else right now, so I'mma leave this to hang til tonight and if I feel tthe need to write more, I will...........
It's funny how this world works. It's a long sickening cycle of "I told you so's". Once again, I the goodguy, have to finish last. Someone has to finish last, right? Someone has to be squashed, spit on, and laughed at for the good of everyone. It's human nature. I'm tired of this always happening to me.
I found out today that the reason that my girlfriend didn't want to tell anyone that were back together is that she's been messing with another guy. I shoulda saw it coming, but my mind was too crowded by her bullshit to figure it out. The reason we broke up in the first place is that she was doing everything in her power to piss me off, because she knew I'd dump her. Four months weve been together. I broke my vow to wear protection until I found my wife for her. I lied to my parents for her. And worst of all I turned on a friend for her. "I don't know love, I've heard of it, looked for it, and even thought I found it at one point, but it wasn't love. It was a lie. It was her." I used to think that I was supposed to be with someone and that I was supposed to be happy all of the time, but I was wrong. I don't know what to do next, perhaps I should chalk up another L like I usually do, but this time doesn't hurt like the others. This time I'm too hurt to cry. Thi time i don't know what to do, because I never expected a blow like this. She doesn't know that i know yet and I guess thats for the best, but as soon as I finish this entry, I'm calling her.
I'm too pissed to talk about anything else right now, so I'mma leave this to hang til tonight and if I feel tthe need to write more, I will...........