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Alright. Well I just got back to campus, and having had five days to rest and enjoy family and friends, I am feeling much more relaxed and coherent than I have in a long time. I'm not really sure if I have any responsibilities to take care of right now, but it's Sunday night, I just dealt with Thanksgiving travel for twelve hours, I am feeling relatively de-stressed, and I want to take advantage of my ability to think clearly to record some thoughts.
I guess I never really understood the- for lack of a better word- awkwardness of Thanksgiving break for college students, especially those of us who need to fly. It's like a little five day taste of home, but I found myself wondering what home really is... I know that sounds ridiculous but I'll explain. I mean, at this point I've settled into school but of course I miss Merrimack when I'm feeling down. Then again such a short time back in New Hampshire sort of seems like an inconvenience, and there were times when I was just depressed that I had to leave so soon, that I should have just stayed in Pittsburgh and relaxed. I suppose that's maybe a sign that I'm becoming comfortable in both places, which is my ultimate goal. If I can miss home when I'm at school and miss school when I'm home, then I know both places are working out for me.
It's sort of funny... I definitely am not totally comfortable with Pittsburgh yet, nor am I really even comfortable with CMU. I mean, it takes more than three months to acclimate, or integrate I suppose, into a completely new culture, so it's not as though I'm panicked that I still have times of serious doubt and/or disappointment here. I'll probably experience those for months (or years) to come. But I have to admit, when I got back to campus I went right away to studio (because it was on the way to my dorm) and I honestly felt instantly at home. There were some people working and we chatted about break and about this awful project winding down and I really felt a strong connection. It was definitely reassuring. The third floor, the couches that we have all spent terrible nights on, the work spaces and pin ups... it was nice to be back, and I'm really glad I can say that.
I was planning on writing some more but Chasen and Anna have thoroughly distracted me throughout this process so I'll probably just go to bed. EIGHT HOURS OF SLEEP!! Hooray!!
I guess I never really understood the- for lack of a better word- awkwardness of Thanksgiving break for college students, especially those of us who need to fly. It's like a little five day taste of home, but I found myself wondering what home really is... I know that sounds ridiculous but I'll explain. I mean, at this point I've settled into school but of course I miss Merrimack when I'm feeling down. Then again such a short time back in New Hampshire sort of seems like an inconvenience, and there were times when I was just depressed that I had to leave so soon, that I should have just stayed in Pittsburgh and relaxed. I suppose that's maybe a sign that I'm becoming comfortable in both places, which is my ultimate goal. If I can miss home when I'm at school and miss school when I'm home, then I know both places are working out for me.
It's sort of funny... I definitely am not totally comfortable with Pittsburgh yet, nor am I really even comfortable with CMU. I mean, it takes more than three months to acclimate, or integrate I suppose, into a completely new culture, so it's not as though I'm panicked that I still have times of serious doubt and/or disappointment here. I'll probably experience those for months (or years) to come. But I have to admit, when I got back to campus I went right away to studio (because it was on the way to my dorm) and I honestly felt instantly at home. There were some people working and we chatted about break and about this awful project winding down and I really felt a strong connection. It was definitely reassuring. The third floor, the couches that we have all spent terrible nights on, the work spaces and pin ups... it was nice to be back, and I'm really glad I can say that.
I was planning on writing some more but Chasen and Anna have thoroughly distracted me throughout this process so I'll probably just go to bed. EIGHT HOURS OF SLEEP!! Hooray!!