Grumble Grumble
when will you see that there has to be more to a relationship? Will it ever click?
Right now, it doesn't seem right. I stopped us from doing anything. I don't even feel right kissing him. something doesn't feel right. Did I lose "interest" in him? Or did I not even like him in the first place? I don't get it. Has this other person already turned me to God so much that I am realizing on my own what is good for me and what isn't? I am so confused right now!
Tonight I know he wanted to do it. But I didn't. I don't ever want to until I am married. I havent told him that I don't want to, but I think he senses something wrong when I tell him no. The sad part, I had to keep telling him no. Its like he kept trying after the first three times. Does he even respect me? Something tells me he is in the relationship becuase of that. But then, something tells me he actually likes me. Could it be my fear that is lying to me?
Anyways, I am going to bed. I have a tournament tomorrow. I need sleep. Good night, if anyone still reads this.
Right now, it doesn't seem right. I stopped us from doing anything. I don't even feel right kissing him. something doesn't feel right. Did I lose "interest" in him? Or did I not even like him in the first place? I don't get it. Has this other person already turned me to God so much that I am realizing on my own what is good for me and what isn't? I am so confused right now!
Tonight I know he wanted to do it. But I didn't. I don't ever want to until I am married. I havent told him that I don't want to, but I think he senses something wrong when I tell him no. The sad part, I had to keep telling him no. Its like he kept trying after the first three times. Does he even respect me? Something tells me he is in the relationship becuase of that. But then, something tells me he actually likes me. Could it be my fear that is lying to me?
Anyways, I am going to bed. I have a tournament tomorrow. I need sleep. Good night, if anyone still reads this.