i heard 'em say
today was my "day off". ha. i laugh at those words. school is hard. and its only been 3 days. crap, what did i get myself in to? the best part of today was running into scott outside of beaumont. we chatted in a busy intersection of sidewalks for over 40 minutes. its always good when you can meet up and talk for so long like you didnt miss a beat.
i wish there werent silly things in my life i was too selfconscious to share with people. because it would make things easier if i did. i mean, then i could talk about how much certain things (interrelated) impact my life in such a way, that i find it hard to think withouth thinking about it. maybe one day i'll warm up to the idea of everyone knowing, but right now its just not good. i almost shared with scott, and i sorta wished i had, because then i could talk to him about it. but alas, i did not. maybe later, like this weekend, when were supposed to hangout.
right now, besdies the fact that things are proving to be hard, and i have to deal with a lot of people moving away, and being way more responsible than i ever counted on...i am actually enjoying life. to the extreme. when im not worried about this that or the other, i am ok. and usually im not. i cant handle being alone, i cant handle not talking to someone constantly. i need people. but being forced into my lack of people to be near me, im having to deal with it. granted im trying my best to make myself constantly busy, hence my conplaining about 'days off' is an inside joke in my head, that i refuse to laugh at. im the vice president of a student group. this is going to require some of my time. i feel this will be fun time because katie is the president (which makes me smile, being able to see her outside of the caf. she is so much fun, and she listens to my ramblings) our first meeting is monday night. yeah!
TG was thinking...stalking on facebook is fun. calling random numbers who call you back is weird.
i wish there werent silly things in my life i was too selfconscious to share with people. because it would make things easier if i did. i mean, then i could talk about how much certain things (interrelated) impact my life in such a way, that i find it hard to think withouth thinking about it. maybe one day i'll warm up to the idea of everyone knowing, but right now its just not good. i almost shared with scott, and i sorta wished i had, because then i could talk to him about it. but alas, i did not. maybe later, like this weekend, when were supposed to hangout.
right now, besdies the fact that things are proving to be hard, and i have to deal with a lot of people moving away, and being way more responsible than i ever counted on...i am actually enjoying life. to the extreme. when im not worried about this that or the other, i am ok. and usually im not. i cant handle being alone, i cant handle not talking to someone constantly. i need people. but being forced into my lack of people to be near me, im having to deal with it. granted im trying my best to make myself constantly busy, hence my conplaining about 'days off' is an inside joke in my head, that i refuse to laugh at. im the vice president of a student group. this is going to require some of my time. i feel this will be fun time because katie is the president (which makes me smile, being able to see her outside of the caf. she is so much fun, and she listens to my ramblings) our first meeting is monday night. yeah!
TG was thinking...stalking on facebook is fun. calling random numbers who call you back is weird.