ANYTHING

[texx17]

i am here in this empty office, it is great, but i can not keep the thought out of my mind that i want something further from the escape i am already on. i want perscription pills, something, get me anything, if it is white, and makes euphoria, i am there. name your price. but the thing is, i know i am the adict of them, they will control me if they are around. just like any other thing i get adicted to, i soon forget about them, then i get a want, every once in a while, i try to get them, i can never get them. but that is ok, i have taken to new things to expand on life. i used to be a fanatic about exercise, then i quit, just like the drugs. but now i am back in it. ask carrie, i have jogged once.. lol just playing it has been for while now, i just had not been jogging for ever. but going hiking, and stuff. anyway right now i just want drugs. but i have no way of getting them, and as i said i know they will control me, until they run out. so for now, i am going to finish work, and then go joggin. or go jump off a building, but there are no bungee cords around.

RYan

P.S. god made these drugs, do you think he would want to hold us back from them?