[update]
First of all, I no longer have a job--I put in my two weeks' after an attempt to write me up for not selling enough passes when they damn well know I worked my ass off for them...hehehe a bit of anger still left in that, I suppose. On the bright side, Kate and I have reconciled, and our friendship endures. For that I am most grateful.
However, I wish I could say the same for other friendships. Recently, I met a girl named Nicole who turned out to be an awesome person, and we were getting along quite well. I made the mistake of sending a link to her photo when my friend wanted to see what she looked like. Even though I told him that day NOT to contact her in any way, he did so, behind my back. Sadly, it came on a day where she suffered a rotten prank from her ex. Adding insult to injury, this friend contacts her, saying he doesn't want in our "action," but just to be friends.
Lovely. That gives her two impressions:
1. I'm only trying to get into her pants
2. It makes me look almost as bad as her ex for "sharing her"
After that, she pushed me away. I've spent the last seven days stewing over this, wondering what I did wrong...how something going so well could derail in a matter of 24 hours. Well, now I know. On top of this, I got to relive what it feels like when a tiny life ends in your hands. I took in a stray, pregnant lab mix I found in the park a week ago. She was very thin and dehydrated with no tags or collar, so I have no doubt she was abandoned due to her pregnancy. Well, her pups were born this weekend, but they began dying. One I tried to revive in my own hands...but I failed. When I took the last surviving two and the mother into the humane society, I was informed that the mother will not nurse her litter if her milk is spoiled, quite possibly due to her malnutrition.
The way this things are stacking against me is getting to be fucking ridiculous. I feel like I've got to take the whole world on and fight for anything I want. Well, I still have my resolve, and that will be enough to endure. I will post again soon.
However, I wish I could say the same for other friendships. Recently, I met a girl named Nicole who turned out to be an awesome person, and we were getting along quite well. I made the mistake of sending a link to her photo when my friend wanted to see what she looked like. Even though I told him that day NOT to contact her in any way, he did so, behind my back. Sadly, it came on a day where she suffered a rotten prank from her ex. Adding insult to injury, this friend contacts her, saying he doesn't want in our "action," but just to be friends.
Lovely. That gives her two impressions:
1. I'm only trying to get into her pants
2. It makes me look almost as bad as her ex for "sharing her"
After that, she pushed me away. I've spent the last seven days stewing over this, wondering what I did wrong...how something going so well could derail in a matter of 24 hours. Well, now I know. On top of this, I got to relive what it feels like when a tiny life ends in your hands. I took in a stray, pregnant lab mix I found in the park a week ago. She was very thin and dehydrated with no tags or collar, so I have no doubt she was abandoned due to her pregnancy. Well, her pups were born this weekend, but they began dying. One I tried to revive in my own hands...but I failed. When I took the last surviving two and the mother into the humane society, I was informed that the mother will not nurse her litter if her milk is spoiled, quite possibly due to her malnutrition.
The way this things are stacking against me is getting to be fucking ridiculous. I feel like I've got to take the whole world on and fight for anything I want. Well, I still have my resolve, and that will be enough to endure. I will post again soon.