pissed off ranting and relevations
im pissed off....
for instance...you were supposedly plotting something for this weekend, or thats what you said valentines day...and whats going to happen...nothing. you wont be back till 11 and you have to be home by 1. well by the time you unload and actually get around to getting out it will probably be 12. thank god for your wonderful curfew. and yes i know im the one getting pissed off and frustrated and thowing a fit, but you know what? right now,...i dont care. and that pisses me off.
im pissed off that im not where i wanted to be six months ago, and evern more pissed at myself that its my fault. im pissed cause i made the wrong choice in coming back. im pissed im repeating the same selfish actions that i did when shit got bad with becs, and blaming everyone else but me for it, and still cant stop myself from doing them. im pissed that i dont get paid till march. im pissed that i feel like i paint a picture of myself to other people, thats probably not true to who i really am. im pissed off that i overreact to everything. im pissed off that i preach undertsanding yet get pissed off when people dont see my point of view. im pissed off that i have no direction right now. im pissed off that i dont know as much as i seem to think i do. im pissed off that people will view this as a pity party. im pissed off that i take everything as a personal attack. im pissed off that i wasnt born with money, and pissed off that i wish i was. im pissed off that i didnt get see mom give a speech tonight cause it was at a chuch. im pissed of that religion makes me uncomfortable. im pissed off that people try to push their religion as the right way and that my way is wrong. im pissed off that the more i write here the more i see what a horrible and hypocritical boyfriend, friend, son, and member to society i am. im pissed off at myself.
for instance...you were supposedly plotting something for this weekend, or thats what you said valentines day...and whats going to happen...nothing. you wont be back till 11 and you have to be home by 1. well by the time you unload and actually get around to getting out it will probably be 12. thank god for your wonderful curfew. and yes i know im the one getting pissed off and frustrated and thowing a fit, but you know what? right now,...i dont care. and that pisses me off.
im pissed off that im not where i wanted to be six months ago, and evern more pissed at myself that its my fault. im pissed cause i made the wrong choice in coming back. im pissed im repeating the same selfish actions that i did when shit got bad with becs, and blaming everyone else but me for it, and still cant stop myself from doing them. im pissed that i dont get paid till march. im pissed that i feel like i paint a picture of myself to other people, thats probably not true to who i really am. im pissed off that i overreact to everything. im pissed off that i preach undertsanding yet get pissed off when people dont see my point of view. im pissed off that i have no direction right now. im pissed off that i dont know as much as i seem to think i do. im pissed off that people will view this as a pity party. im pissed off that i take everything as a personal attack. im pissed off that i wasnt born with money, and pissed off that i wish i was. im pissed off that i didnt get see mom give a speech tonight cause it was at a chuch. im pissed of that religion makes me uncomfortable. im pissed off that people try to push their religion as the right way and that my way is wrong. im pissed off that the more i write here the more i see what a horrible and hypocritical boyfriend, friend, son, and member to society i am. im pissed off at myself.