im fat
i want to eat pizza but im fat
i want to eat cupcakes but im fat
i want to wear my old shirt but im fat
i fucking fat
i hate this
im trying to lose weight
i hate it when im soo keen to do something and then my dad fucking turn me off. i really want to do my best to apply for this loan thingy as my university allowance but he just fucking turn me off. everything seems a burden to him, im his fucking daughter and why does he always act like im asking him to do something nuisance, ofc he got to do it, its not like i have my own fucking car and my own fucking money. if i got it all i can do it by myself, eventhough it'll take forever i'll try my best to do it by myself, its just that i dont have a fucking chance!!!!!! if mama were here shes always try her best for me so that i can have my own fucking loan, she always does to the extent that i'll feel as if shes the one that wants it. shes always like that and shes not fucking here. and im fucking scared and im just clueless though i try my best to let out my optimistic side
comforting myself with pics of kaname. i wish hes alive beside me and then we're going to have a comforting sex and hes going to whisper sweet thing to my ear and try to keep me calm. *gross sobbing*
i want to eat cupcakes but im fat
i want to wear my old shirt but im fat
i fucking fat
i hate this
im trying to lose weight
i hate it when im soo keen to do something and then my dad fucking turn me off. i really want to do my best to apply for this loan thingy as my university allowance but he just fucking turn me off. everything seems a burden to him, im his fucking daughter and why does he always act like im asking him to do something nuisance, ofc he got to do it, its not like i have my own fucking car and my own fucking money. if i got it all i can do it by myself, eventhough it'll take forever i'll try my best to do it by myself, its just that i dont have a fucking chance!!!!!! if mama were here shes always try her best for me so that i can have my own fucking loan, she always does to the extent that i'll feel as if shes the one that wants it. shes always like that and shes not fucking here. and im fucking scared and im just clueless though i try my best to let out my optimistic side
comforting myself with pics of kaname. i wish hes alive beside me and then we're going to have a comforting sex and hes going to whisper sweet thing to my ear and try to keep me calm. *gross sobbing*