i will not turn
i've been hurt before, so has he. but we got through all that shit. you know, everyone gets hurt. everyone makes mistakes. but no one...absolutely NO ONE deserves to be looked down upon by every single person she used to be friends with. no matter what the case. that is why i will always stay her friend and always be a shoulder for her to cry on. you know, people make mistakes. and i dont think anybody regrets a mistake the way she does right now. i know her, and i know that she did not do this intentionally. she did not make up her mind to go out and ruin her life and the lives of two others. i dont like this at all, i seriously dont. this is such bull. i know the mistake was wrong, but there are so many other ways to get through this. why does everyone have to react this way? i know love...and i know what its like to be shot down and hurt. i know what its like to cry so hard you feel like when you run out of tears you'll just start puking so bad you pass out. i know what its like to sit propped up behind the counter at work or curled up in a corner of the backroom, crying so hard i thought my world was completely over. but you know, i decided that instead of going ballistic, i would actually try and prevent my life from being wasted like that. because its going to go on, no matter what you do or say. and it was that day when i realized how much he regretted his actions and no matter what happened, his love for me was real.... things were fine. and i could live my life with control again. no matter how much i hated that girl, i never struck out at her, i left her alone. and that ended up affecting her more. i realize that this is an absolutely awful, horrible, and heartbreaking situation for three people i care about a lot. but i refuse to turn my back on my best friend. she made a mistake, she realizes it and she regrets it. but you know, the man i've come to love more than anyone made the same mistake against me. and life went on. its still love and its love that we've earned and fought hard for. and i love melody, dearly and completely. its life and this is highschool. we're all human. and i truly am sorry and i truly am concerned for those three people. but these are not heartless people, i know that because i know them. i just wish they could stop the further heartbreak and make this situation stop before it got any deeper. you cant think me wrong for feeling this way. and if you want to strike out at me, im sorry. to my friends, you know i'll love you no matter what.