Moonlight used to bathe the contours of your face while chestnut hair fell all around the pillowcase
I've been feeling creative lately. But also stuck. I have so much that I want to get out as an artist, but it's become more of a struggle than usual. It's frustrating, needless to say.
I've also been confusing myself all sorts. Mostly about romance, and whether or not I really care at all to have it as a part of my life. I find myself growing attracted and then shifting back to apathy about a few people. Mostly because of a duel between reason and irrationality. I'm a bi-polar romantic? I think I'm just gonna keep on doing what I've been doing: absolutely nothing. That way, I don't have to attain any unnecessary excess emotions over any attachments that could potentially form, since I won't make any anyway. Life's a bit simpler that way.
I need to get my act together as far as my career goes anyway, and let's face it, there is no one out there who would be willing to go take the kind of gamble I'm gonna end up taking. Of course, that's only half true. Successful musicianship isn't the winnings a gamble, it's the fruition of hard work and dedication, just like becoming a successful doctor or lawyer. Relationships... those are gambles. You can't completely trust anyone to stay faithful, to follow through with plans or promises. There's no such thing as a completely reciprocated devotion. Somebody's always gonna hide or lie about something. At least, that's what I've seen for the most part. Really, when you find two people who don't lie to each other, who legitimately and truly love each other, and never break any promises or trust, who resist any temptation or trouble thrown at them, well then... seriously, if that isn't luck, then I don't know what is. Billions of people in the world, and you find that one person who isn't going to break your heart.
Actually, I'm probably just a little bitter.
Whatever.
I've also been confusing myself all sorts. Mostly about romance, and whether or not I really care at all to have it as a part of my life. I find myself growing attracted and then shifting back to apathy about a few people. Mostly because of a duel between reason and irrationality. I'm a bi-polar romantic? I think I'm just gonna keep on doing what I've been doing: absolutely nothing. That way, I don't have to attain any unnecessary excess emotions over any attachments that could potentially form, since I won't make any anyway. Life's a bit simpler that way.
I need to get my act together as far as my career goes anyway, and let's face it, there is no one out there who would be willing to go take the kind of gamble I'm gonna end up taking. Of course, that's only half true. Successful musicianship isn't the winnings a gamble, it's the fruition of hard work and dedication, just like becoming a successful doctor or lawyer. Relationships... those are gambles. You can't completely trust anyone to stay faithful, to follow through with plans or promises. There's no such thing as a completely reciprocated devotion. Somebody's always gonna hide or lie about something. At least, that's what I've seen for the most part. Really, when you find two people who don't lie to each other, who legitimately and truly love each other, and never break any promises or trust, who resist any temptation or trouble thrown at them, well then... seriously, if that isn't luck, then I don't know what is. Billions of people in the world, and you find that one person who isn't going to break your heart.
Actually, I'm probably just a little bitter.
Whatever.