A plan...
So...having a plan...even a shitty plan...can make you feel a little in control of an uncontrollable situation.
I don't think I'm pregnant...again...
So here's my plan:
Hold out the teeny tiny little bit of hope that I'm actually pregnant this month. Not likely since my temperature dropped and well...progesterone just doesn't work that way. After knowing for sure on Monday...
Make an appointment with my OB to have my day 3 numbers run. This includes: FsH, LH, AMH, Estradiol (E2), and Prolactin. In case you didn't know...this involves getting my blood drawn...with a needle! Which is really tough for me. I'll do it...but I really hate it. I'll be listening to my "Needles are OK" hypnosis religiously for the next few days. Then I will inseminate with my last little Ian vial sometime in mid July. This will also be kind of hard for me. I've grown rather attached to Ian. I thought we'd make beautiful babies...but alas..it may not be meant to be. Then 7 days later...I will go and have yet another blood draw(!?!?!) to check my progesterone and make sure I'm hold enough of that baby sustaining hormone in my body to...well...sustain a baby.
Assuming all that checks out, and I still don't get pregnant in July (goodbye Ian), I get to pick another donor. Suck. I'll buy 3 vials of new donor (Likely Sven or Alan...) and try in August and September and October (even if I have to cart my sperm to New Orleans). That will put my at the "magic" 8 tries (according to TSBC...I have a 1/8 chance of conceiving with this method using frozen sperm). Then I will take a needed but emotional break from TTC for November and December and stuff a ton of money into my FSA account. I will use that money to have an HsG and buy lots of sperm (most likely having to pick donors AGAIN) and do back to back inseminations. For those who don't know what an HsG is...they run a catheter through your cervix and pump contrast dye into your uterus to make sure your fallopian tubes are open.
The only hitch in this plan is the HsG. If there is a major problem with the HsG, then I don't know WTF I would do with my FSA money that was suppose to go to sperm. I could go ahead and have it done this year, but it slightly increases your chances of conceiving for a couple of month afterward, and I would hate it to go to waste... But I've got it mostly worked out.
It does make me feel better to have a plan, and hopefully I won't need any of it. *sigh*
I don't think I'm pregnant...again...
So here's my plan:
Hold out the teeny tiny little bit of hope that I'm actually pregnant this month. Not likely since my temperature dropped and well...progesterone just doesn't work that way. After knowing for sure on Monday...
Make an appointment with my OB to have my day 3 numbers run. This includes: FsH, LH, AMH, Estradiol (E2), and Prolactin. In case you didn't know...this involves getting my blood drawn...with a needle! Which is really tough for me. I'll do it...but I really hate it. I'll be listening to my "Needles are OK" hypnosis religiously for the next few days. Then I will inseminate with my last little Ian vial sometime in mid July. This will also be kind of hard for me. I've grown rather attached to Ian. I thought we'd make beautiful babies...but alas..it may not be meant to be. Then 7 days later...I will go and have yet another blood draw(!?!?!) to check my progesterone and make sure I'm hold enough of that baby sustaining hormone in my body to...well...sustain a baby.
Assuming all that checks out, and I still don't get pregnant in July (goodbye Ian), I get to pick another donor. Suck. I'll buy 3 vials of new donor (Likely Sven or Alan...) and try in August and September and October (even if I have to cart my sperm to New Orleans). That will put my at the "magic" 8 tries (according to TSBC...I have a 1/8 chance of conceiving with this method using frozen sperm). Then I will take a needed but emotional break from TTC for November and December and stuff a ton of money into my FSA account. I will use that money to have an HsG and buy lots of sperm (most likely having to pick donors AGAIN) and do back to back inseminations. For those who don't know what an HsG is...they run a catheter through your cervix and pump contrast dye into your uterus to make sure your fallopian tubes are open.
The only hitch in this plan is the HsG. If there is a major problem with the HsG, then I don't know WTF I would do with my FSA money that was suppose to go to sperm. I could go ahead and have it done this year, but it slightly increases your chances of conceiving for a couple of month afterward, and I would hate it to go to waste... But I've got it mostly worked out.
It does make me feel better to have a plan, and hopefully I won't need any of it. *sigh*