The Stars Are Sending You A Sign

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Title: The Stars Are Sending You A Sign
Characters: Ayani, Wash, Taylor, Lucas
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 12184
Genre: drama
Spoilers: season 1
Summary: A broken woman without a home tries to find a place she can be free finally.
Author's Note:  (stolen from sky_kiss): 'from the original draft of Terra Nova in which Nathaniel was a psycho with a god complex named

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[sky_kiss]

YOU POSTED IT.

You know what this means.....

EPIC RANT TIME. Brace yourself.

This fic. This frakking' fic will never cease to amaze me and break my heart and make me feel things and I'm still not sure how I feel about that. I suppose it makes you a talented author and things but it is most distressing. Especially since it's so so so so so sad for poor Frayani and there's not a damn thing we can do to help her.

POOR FRAYANI. We've got to say that so often and I still feel it. BECAUSE POOR FRAYANI. Nothing makes me want to punch frakkin' Frank in the face more then this. Because that he could take such a strong, confident woman (well...in the other universe) and turn her into this poor broken shell of a woman is absolutely heart rending. That she want so badly to believe things can be better in this world but is still frightened from living under Frank's shadow her entire life....MY HEART. I want to hug that woman.

The scene with Wash where she asks whether or not she can see Lucas and Wash snaps at her. -______________- Wash and her antics. Being so touchy about being shot in the face. And while that is sad it's poor Frayani's reaction to it that just HURTS. That she just runs off and expects to have some punishment inflicted upon her. ASKJDASLKDAJSLKDASJL! LET ME LOVE YOU, WOMAN.

Their friendship is beautiful and that she can still look so well upon Wash, her Wash, after everything she did in her world. The reservation she feels about confronting Taylor. AND JIM. JIM'S TINY CAMEO. I LOVE THAT MAN. LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

AND AND AND AND AND. WHAT. There were other things I wanted to talk about before we got to the Lucas bit cause I remember you hated the Lucas bits (which I know is because he was a pain in the ass but they turned out fabulous so HARK!). How she's so pleased by simple things like getting new clothes and wandering outside. That such BASIC human necessities and attentions make her so happy...MY HEART AGAIN.

And now. Lucas. LUCAS. I mentioned it to you earlier but I'll say it here again. His death was handled masterfully and is, you're going hate me for this, one of my favorites things in the fic. Because it's just so poetic and FITTING. That she be his center of morality and that he fell for her and is redeemed ONLY for her is just...guh. PERFECTION. He's not a nicer kid and if he'd lived he'd have been just as much a bastard as before. But for HER, for Ayani, he can be something slightly better.

And the funeral and when they all snuggle together. :D EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Frayani's development as a character and the last scene. GUH. Just my favorite things about this. That they are both letting go of their past and are prepared to move forward. All of it. ALL OF IT IS PERFECT AND I WILL NEVER HEAR OTHERWISE BECAUSE IT IS TRUE. SO VERY TRUE.

YOU. YOU ARE MY GODDESS.