its about that time.
well lets see its been months sence ive been on here. well im engaged but to be honest this will be the second time i was engaged. cause the last one just lost all intrest in me out of no where. and i dont know i think my girl is starting to lose intrest in me also...like i feel she has to hold me or touch me cause she has nothing else to do or she feels like she has to.or like i can only hold her when shes in a slump or really depressed....i dont know maybe im over doing it but i cant help but wonder is that whats going on....or am i not meant to be with anyone......maybe i not...maybe im not worth to be with anyone....maybe im suppose to be on my own and not have the love and compassion of another humanbeing.....the way i see it whatever happends happends and i cant stop it so whats the point....sometimes i wish there was a way to see what will happen to my life before it happends....see if i get my heart ripped out once again....i say the hell with life if your get hurt or did wrong more than once....then your desirve it you may not know why but maybe....who knows and who cares.