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[terik]

I guess there comes a time in every parent's life when they hear or know something is wrong their precious children that they don't want to hear. Perhaps that is why so many parents live in a state of denial. It is too painful to hear that they might not have that precious child they raised - even more so, it is too painful to think it is

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[anonymous]

i just wanted to say that its not your fault.... im not the way i am becuause of anything you did or didnt do. honestly, i dont really know why i am this way. i didnt want to tell you anything becuase i didnt want you to be disappointed in me... parents always have ideals for their kids... and i know i dont meet those ideals. youre right though.... if you push me too hard, i will fall. if you dont push me at all... i'll just fade away. but, one thing ive learned from talking to karen and the others is... that i deal with being pushed much better from someone who im not so emotionally tied into.

i love you... and i know you love me. all i've ever felt from you was love.

(((((hug)))))

me (you know who.. hehe)

[terik]

I know it isn't really my "fault." We all come in to walk our own path and need to do the things we need to do in order to grow. My fear is that you do not know it is not your "fault," either! There isn't any "blame" to assign here. I don't really have ideals like a lot of parents have ideals for their children. Well, perhaps that isn't entirely true, my "ideal" is that you follow your heart. That you make your path. That you do what you need to do for yourself. That has always been my "ideal." You can't disappoint me because I have no expectations ... not like we usually define "expectations" in our world. There is nothing you have to "live up to" for me. The expectation that I had, if I could be said to have one at all, you have already fill - you do no harm. That is all I've ever asked and you have always done your best to harm no one ... I hope you will remember that applies, like everything, to yourself first